God I'm Feeling Low

Inside my mind going back and forth
Every single night I ask the Lord
Will he take all these grey clouds away
Cuz when it rain I can't stand the storm
Trauma a pain that I can't ignore
No drive for days, I'm a crashing course
I'm tryna fight off my depression
I don't know how long I had it for

But I had it long enough to know that
It is a part of me
They say get over it as if it isn't hard for me
As if I didn't hear it from everybody else
Giving me their opinion on everything
They feel is wrong with me
These highs and lows, taken a toll
I can't control, my feelings now
I just don't know, how long I'll go
Way down this road, I'm feeling down
I make a record so they feel me now

Just cuz you exist, don't mean you're alive
And I realized this, as time passes by
I can't call it quits, I quit every-time
I need to resist, this feeling inside
I wish my pain would leave and just exit
Maybe I didn't earned my lesson
Lately I feel disconnected, cuz

God I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm feeling low, don't know where to go, oh
God I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm tired of the pain, wish it'd go away, ay

I tell myself that I got this
Then tell myself that I'm not shit
Tearing down my spirit
Now I'm in my feelings
Man, when am I gunna stop this
These voices in my head, do hit for sure
Comparing myself till I'm insecure
It hits me the worse when I'm feeling doubt
I'm locked in my thoughts
There's no getting out
It's a toxic cycle that I can't break
To paralyze to move, so then I just wait
Till the pressure crushes me with all of this weight
Trust me I tried to run but I can't escape
Life like a loaded gun pointed at my face
Loves like a potent drug, just to numb my pain
I tried to open up, to the ones I'd date
Just to get broken up, yo what a mistake

God I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm feeling low, don't know where to go, oh
God I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm tired of the pain, wish it'd go away, ay

I pray the Lord my soul to keep
This night mare isn't what I dreamed
I cross my hands, in agony
I pray, I pray, oh