Going Gets Hard

When I look inside a mirror, I don't recognize the person who I use to be
I just need space, they think I'm okay, all because of this smile that I keep
These break downs gotta create a break thru, at least I keep saying that to me
I been praying to god to heal my inner child, my emotions make me think
I am unworthy and it's always irks me
That's why I over achieved
Tryna prove myself, so no one can tell
My insecurities run deep
And that's how I hide them
Maybe I just need to hide then
Cuz if they look they'll see all my scars
And point out and magnify all of my flaws
And it's getting hard, displaying myself in a room
Of critics critiquing every song I drop and every move
My mind's been abused, my self worth is weighed by likes and views
If I don't hit a certain number of plays it starts effecting my mood
I'm sick of my ego, but I keep it real tho, I really don't know what to do
I'm paralyzed by my self image
I carry pain but it's well hidden
I'm struggling, there's no help given
Nobody knows the hell that this is
I'm the black sheep in this rap business
Life broke my spirit, you can can't fix it
There'll be a day where I have vengeance
I'ma step to your face and just laugh in it

Cuz you don't wanna look out for me
You don't wanna fight another day
I know it's hard
It's hard, it's hard, it's hard

Yeah, it's just in me inside my studio like all day
Working, never take off days
Been a hand full of hard ways
I'm deaf to what y'all say
I don't ever listen
I just keep the distance and I elevate
Been in my room since 17
Charted on Billboard you would think
That you'd be congratulating me
You don't relate to me? Yeah, that's a lie
You know my music is real, don't deny it
When you was in your room and you would cry
You know you needed Sik World in your life and just
Just know that I know
I can't talk to girls on the low
Who screenshot to boast
Struggles you don't even know
Struggles you don't even know

I'd just rather not even talk
That's-that's why I'm not replying to you
Because you screenshotted me, so ha
I can't, I can't
Yeah I just, I'd rather not

Woah ooh, and I know it's hard
I know it's cold
Know you got your scars
Please stay
Yeah, it's hard
It's hard, it's hard, it's hard