Funeral

I'm singing at a funeral tomorrow
For a kid a year older than me
And I've been talking to his dad, it makes me so sad
When I think too much about it, I can't breathe
And I have this dream where I'm screaming underwater
And my friends are all waving from the shore
And I don't need you to tell me what that means
I don't believe in that shit anymore

Well, Jesus Christ
I'm so blue all the time
And that's just how I feel
Always have and I always will
Always have and I always will

I have this friend I call
When I've bored myself to tears
And we talk until we think we might just kill ourselves
And then we laugh until it disappears
And last night, I blacked out in my car
And I woke up in my childhood bed
Wishing I was someone else, feeling sorry for myself
Then I remembered, someone's kid is dead

Well, Jesus Christ
I'm so blue all the time
And that's just how I feel
Always have and I always will
I always have and I always will

And it's four AM again
And I'm doing nothing again
I'm doing nothing, I'm doing nothing!