Nothing Hurts More Than Loving Me

My chest hurts, I'm falling
Down the same rabbit hole
That I was lost in
Hope I'll find my way out
And I can't stop stalling
Maybe if I have one more drink
I will calm down
My head's exhausting

I don't wanna deal with it
And you don't wanna deal with me
I've been told, nothing hurts more than loving me
You don't wanna feel that way
And I don't wanna feel that pain
Rather you hate me now
Get it out of the way

You don't wanna deal with me
And I don't wanna feel that way
If it hurts loving me
Get it out of the way

Everything's slowed down, so I sped it up
Found some clarity and I threw it all out
Thought I had a plan, but I made it all up
Just going along till I mess it all up
My heart strings are pulling and taking
I used to have driven and it's fading
Lately I feel like I'm wasting away
I know nobody's waiting

Love is blind, but I see why loving me is bad
A stomped out heart inside a girl with no real plan
With a past so dark that she just can't understand
Who would ever wanna hold these shaky hands?

Whoo-uh, whoo-uh
(Who would ever wanna hold these shaky hands?)
Whoo-uh, whoo-uh (these shaky hands)
Whoo-uh, whoo-uh

I don't wanna deal with it
And you don't wanna deal with me
I've been told, nothing hurts more than loving me
You don't wanna feel that way
And I don't wanna feel that pain
Rather you hate me now
Get it out of the way