Would It Matter Pt. 2

Messing with my life, I been playing with the fire
You say that you care but you don't, you just a liar
Fuck a cheatcode, birthday cake just like a hacker
I would tell you how I felt but would it even matter?
I don't know, I don't know
I don't really think it would, think it would
I keep it to myself, to myself
Because I know I should, know I should

Broken angel wings, I been rushing to the grave
Nobody ever show you love until you make a name
I'm so sick of being nice when no one's nice to me
And I'm so sick of everybody always guiding me
Things won't ever feel the same like it used to
Cut connection off, something like it's Bluetooth
All fine like I got here with a DDos
Too drunk, I'ma show when I'm next on

I need you by my side
Tell me that I'ma be fine
I'm such a mess, staying up every night
Nobody knows what I like deep inside
I know I can do this, I just need some time
It's evident, they say I'm heaven-sent
Work on my art, I can't focus on negatives
I'm over all of this, isn't it obvious
Know where you love it, it shows empty promises

Living life is full of sin and self-destruction
So high I can barely even function
Going up, I'm blessing up just like a miss hole
I might have it 'fore I reach my full potential
Feeling down and so I go and light the sticky up
Running lies inside my head it's like it never stop
Never had it, now I do it, now they want a taste
Blurring memories with the blood until they're all erased

Let's be honest, you're not special, we are all the same
Making music is the only thing that heals the pain
Never had it, now I do it, now they want a taste
Burning memories with the blood until they're all a waste

Messing with my life, I been playing with the fire
You say that you care but you don't, you just a liar
Fuck a cheatcode, birthday cake just like a hacker
I would tell you how I felt but would it even matter?
I don't know, I don't know
I don't really think it would, think it would
I keep it to myself, to myself
Because I know I should, know I should