When Words Fail, Music Speaks pt.ll

Wanna take this back to the start of us
Cause when we argue I'm drifting like Maseratis does
The hardest part, know that I'm ignorant and my heart is fucked
Karmas come, now I'm just missin you while I spark this blunt
We never text at all, she still rejecting calls
Tension, attention to the pressure and the stress I've caused
Please protect me Lord
I think I'm m sinkin deeper slowly to the reaper and its seeming that I'm set to fall
All my selfish ways could wreck you and affect your thoughts
I've been neglecting self to focus on protecting yours
I want better thoughts, I best reflect then pause
For seconds where I let the seconds go because the stress is more, than I can take...
I think I'm m dying but my souls awake
She's crying threats of suicide upon my shoulder blades
How the fuck am I the one to take this all away
Girl all I did was walk on by and leave you there to cause the pain

I Lost her for this bitch and this girl
This gift is my curse, its witty how I'm quick with my words
See this 30 minute threesome means the end of my world
But I flirt, when I'm on the roads just like a rental for Hertz
And it hurts her!

She knows ill only sorta change
The same impulses hit my pulses then its all the same
I'm such a fuck up I'm disgusting man that's all I say
All I wanted was a wife I swear that's all I pray

But that's a contradiction, so this ain't right for you
I'm such a constant dick head, I still can't lie to you
We might be broke for the minute, Girl I'll provide for you
And ride for you, literally Bonnie and Clyde ta die for you
Get high with you, don't give a fuck for my health
How can a man love his girl if he ain't lovin himself
And that's real...
Don't give a fuck for my health
How can this man love himself if he ain't lovin himself