Amnesia

Just one moment
Is all I ask for
Just one talk between us
And just one second now
Some perfect clarity

And I swore
To God
That I wouldn't cry
And I swore
I can't see how it's anything more than a lie
And all the years
I won't ever let them go
All my fears
They bring me down, down so low
And I'll be missing you
For a lifetime
But eighteen years are better than none
Until the time comes for me
To turn to dust

So I'll get on fine
My mind turned inside out
I've always found it easy
To hide these thoughts of mine
A collapsing state of mind
I'll sink to where thoughts can't find me

And I swore
To God
That I wouldn't cry
I swore
I can't see how it's anything more than a lie
And all the years
I won't ever let them go
All my fears
They break me down, down so low
And I'll be missing you
For a lifetime
But eighteen years are better than none
Until the time comes for me
To turn, to turn

And we all hurt
And time heals nothing at all
Decisions made
They cut me off
From all I've ever known
And I can't think
No, I can't breathe
I can't be what I want to with this weight on me
I wish I had
Selective amnesia
To keep you away from me

But I'll be missing you
For a lifetime
But eighteen years are better than none
Until the time comes for me
To turn to dust