Pressure 4

Dear God
Thank you for another day
But tonight my prayer is gonna be a little bit different
Forgive me

How can I say this without sounding like a fool
But if the bible is correct, and everthing it says is true
Well then you protect your children and can watch their every move
So how come you didn't stop those evil men from enterin that school
You let them walk in and take away those lives that you created
And destroyed the families close because their lives forever tainted
See the media will run it but to them it's entertainment
They gonna deal with that forever while the news will keep on changin
And before I start the blaming, maybe it's me
Maybe there's something in our future you didn't want them to see
Maybe you needed some more angels, that could possibly be
But they could have went out in peace, you could've took them in their sleep
God, you mean to tell me if you took my child away
I'm supposed to run to church and act like I got all this faith
Like I wouldn't have a problem kneeling down so I could pray
Feeling like you took the only thing that gives me any strength
And if you didn't save the people, how can I still believe that
Anything could keep us safe in the midst of all this evil
Sometimes I feel like everyone winnin is so deceitful
While the good die young, so we're survived by scum
And it's a shame I can't do anything but sit back and watch
It's like a movie but it's real, no happy end to this plot
But I still ain't going to the movies cause it touches my heart
That those people down in Colorado went to one and got shot
And tell me what about the starving, don't know why there be starving
If they say you turning water to wine, then what's the problem
We all can hear them crying for help, but who's responding
Maybe you should turn the poorest of dirts into a garden
And forgive me if I mislead, anyone with this plea
But I'm just trying to find out all the answers that might miss me
Cause I don't go to church, no I don't know how it works
But I speak to you enough for you to know I am hurt
You giving babies to babies, it's no discussion
They are born and they bring them up bad, it's so disrupting
They treat the blessing we call life like it is nothing
And the people that deserve that right are not amongst them
See my cousin and her husband have been married for awhile
Since high school, I watched them live together with a smile
And they praise you everyday, so I'm not understanding how
No matter how much they would pray you couldn't bless them with a child
It don't make sense, I met this little girl and she was paralyzed
So maybe you didn't need her yet, and maybe she didn't have to die
But how am I to tell her it's ok, and she don't gotta cry
When everything she been through in her life, left her traumatized
Why didn't you take her then, I don't need a reason
I just wonder why she gotta live her life without her feeling
Told me that she was a fan and right before she started leaving
I said "God bless" she said "I no longer believe in Jesus"
As far as me, you've given me the gift of rap
A way to express and I'm grateful for this thinking cap
Put me in a position where I ain't never looking back
But I ain't making nothing off creating all these sicker tracks
I look at everyone you're blessing with success
Giving them these opportunities to take them higher steps
While they rap about and spread a message we know you don't rep
So how can I still be unheard of if we know they don't do it best
You telling me that Waka Flocka, Gucci Mane and them Chief Keefs
Deserve to be embraced for what they saying on each beat
Pushing all them drugs and how they always gonna be street
Bragging about courtside, while we struggle for cheap seats
I don't get it cause I know they don't deserve it
But they say it's God's work so I'm guessing it's all on purpose
Or maybe you don't want me to get there because it's worthless
And the game is so corrupt that I'm only scratching the surface
But everytime I stop or say maybe I need to get a job
Something always happens to stop it or really make it hard
I don't wanna quit after thinking I couldn't get this far
I feel like I'm the best, in the movie I didn't get the star
So tell me God, why I'm feeling so grimey
Is is cause I never looked still expecting for you to find me
Or maybe I'm just blind and I need somebody to guide me
I'm so sorry I just needed to put these feelings behind me
Amen