Miso & Memories

Tell me, have you ever loved someone so much
That your drug of choice becomes their touch?
Tell me, do you always put yourself to blame
Tryna maintain, tryna relight the flame?

I fell right apart right in front of her door
She texted me "what are you here for?"
Baby, I ain't no matador
When the stakes get high I drop to the floor

Been drinking away my nights to pass the time
Falling in and out of love to stay alive
I always chase a high I know I'll never find
Why is she still on my mind?

Why is she still on my mind?
Why is she still on my mind?
Why is she still on my mind?

Don't you know this is all a show
And with highs come lows, so hold on
Last fall, I fell again, for a somber girl
Somber til the end

Words left unsaid circle round my head
As the curtains closed so did her act end
Filled with dread over what comes next
As memories fade to gray

Don't you know this is all a show
And with highs come lows, so hold on
Don't you know this is all a show
And with highs come lows, so hold on

I'm holding on to yesterday
Stuck in a haze, morally depraved
Memories of her feed me feelings I crave
She won't even look my fucking way

Been drinking away my nights to pass the time
Falling in and out of love to stay alive
I always chase a high I know I'll never find
Why is she still on my mind?

Why is she still on my mind?
Why is she still on my mind?
Why is she still on my mind?

Don't you know this is all a show
And with highs come lows, so hold on

Don't you know this is all a show
And with highs come lows, so hold on
Last fall, I fell again, for a somber girl
Somber til the end

Now all I got are these memories
Heart on my sleeve, I'm bleeding deep
Over miso soup cut with celery
She told me that she loved me

Now all I got are these melodies
Are in my dark perfect remedy
Up on Adderall, chasing dopamine
I'm letting go, let go with me