Carmen

Other people could see how hurt I was
But I didn't want anyone to see
To be able to tell that I was hurt
So I just tried to do the opposite
I tried to
I didn't care about anything
And it worked
The people believed that I didn't care

Yo sis, where do I start?
I got all this hurt and pain just sitting on my heart
'Cause I remember our childhood days, picturing the scars
Try forget so I'm drinking every day and it's ripping me apart
So what do I do? I abuse myself
It's all my fault, I accuse myself
Going insane, gonna lose myself
Rewind time, I would choose myself
Can't take it
Losing a sibling is heartbreaking
And I never thought you would not make it
Kept the faith and didn't stop praying
Till my arms aching
And I can't take it no more
I'ma just cry more tears
And I know that you wasn't all there
Flashback to the day you ran away and I didn't see you for years
Lost my sister then lost my confidence (Yeah)
What's the consequence?
Music ain't the same, I feel done with this
Nothing matters now, I just want my sis

'Cause you're my sister
I really miss ya, always
Damn right I need ya
Can't wait to see ya, one day
'Cause you're my sister
And yeah I miss ya, always (I miss ya)
Damn right I need ya
Can't wait to see ya, one day

Your funeral was beautiful
We were all blacked out with purple, it was suitable
And when you found out that you had cancer, didn't know who to call
That's why you left it, for like a year or so
And that's when I should've been there
That's when I should've said don't be scared
That's when I should've had you in my prayers
And my heart broke when I seen you losing your hair
It's so unfair
I gotta dry my tears
'Cause the kids lost both parents in 3 years
When your husband passed
I could tell you was struggling mad
But then you tried to move on fast with a guy that was beating you like a man
I only got told this when you died
He was there when I sat by your side
When I had to dry your tears from ur eyes
Did no wrong, didn't deserve to die, why?

'Cause you're my sister
I really miss ya, always (I miss ya, sis)
Damn right I need ya
Can't wait to see ya, one day (One day)
'Cause you're my sister
And yeah I miss ya, always (Yeah, I miss ya)
Damn right I need ya
Can't wait to see ya, one day

I love ya, sis, [?]
Don't worry, I'll wipe my tears now
When I look after [?]
Gon' miss you, sis
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