Body Pillow

(Album: Sad Clown Bad Dub 2 - 2000)

And then there was this one night when I took the time
To examine a napkin in a Chicago hotel room
I wasn't alone, it was a night after a show
The space was full, energy was consumed
There was a girl, emphasis on the "L"
And she was noticing the detail as well
And the two of us found something with each other
Previously undiscovered: hell is full of lovers
And the daylight is bright, always makes me squint
But it feels like magic when it touches my face
Suffocate myself, overwhelm myself
And let the sun rays abandon me floating through space

And she still wonders why I'm so insecure
She giggles because I sleep with a body pillow
Intentions are never nothing short of pure
But there's a price to pay when you try to live a little

And as attractive as that napkin ever could've been
My! How it unfolded! Hold it to the wind
Try now to be a rock but she's caught under the skin
Ex-lover and a best friend, just like the rest of them
Then there was this one night
I stopped to watch someone bite the tip of a cigarette
To hold it in-between her lips
Never met nobody like her
Please brace yourself, danger danger, this might hurt
The playground feels a lot different when the sun's out
She wasn't messing round she came in with her guns out
Screaming 'bout the ocean: "Anybody wanna go with me?"
Never knew punk rock could be so pretty
Now catch your breath and then catch the ball
And sit by the phone, so you can catch the call
Writing catchy one-liners on the bathroom stall
Here I go wouldn't you know, still learnin to crawl

And she still wonders why I'm so insecure
She giggles because I sleep with a body pillow
Intentions are never nothing short of pure
But there's a price to pay when you try to live a little

I've always dug the way you love the way your tattoos intimidate men
I guess I'm one of them
Standing right next to you from way over here
Ex-lover and a best friend, (best lover and an ex-friend)
Then there was this one night I noticed a tree
That stood by itself about an hour up north
And I can picture her holding on to the limb
Wearing a summer dress and a grin
Swinging back and forth
Talking 'bout the breeze and how easy it is
To leave all the worries in the backseat
Teach me please, I need the abilities to live
Silly me, I tried to measure it by what I can give
You
But she didn't need anything, just a pair of ears
Some strong fingers and someone to share the tears
Bread the fear, feeling it inadequate
Now let's make-believe that I can handle it

And she still wonders why I'm so insecure
She giggles because I sleep with a body pillow
Intentions are never nothing short of pure
But there's a price to pay when you try to live a little

And I still get to talk to you every now and then
Definition of "over" doesn't have to be the end
It's good to see you grow girl, shake my hand
That's all I want from my ex-lover and my best friend
(That's all I want, so)

I got your back (I got your back, you know I got your back)
Don't ever fucking question that
I got your back
I'll always have your back
I still got your back

And she still wonders why I'm so insecure
She giggles because I sleep with a body pillow
Intentions are never nothing short of pure
But there's a price to pay when you try to live a little

And she still wonders why I'm so insecure
She giggles because I sleep with a body pillow
Intentions are never nothing short of pure
But there's a price to pay when you try to live a little

Do you think I could borrow like fifty bucks?