Infliction

(Album: Origin - 2000)

My life's scars run so deep, deep as in before birth
Some things just won't ever change, feed myself some more pain
Bad memories of childhood corrupting innocence
Not teaching me, misleading me, leaving me on my own
Why questioning? No answering, this shit's just so fucked up
Ignoring my own personal self characteristics

Why no one was there to look after me, torn in between myself
Lost everything taken away from me, words they can't hear
Deaf to hear
Born out of somebody's audacity, not given a fair chance
Lies spoken in words that I do not know, pain teaching me
Suffering

I can't ignore my feelings, my own hostility
Wearing my hate on my face, look into my eyes
How in the world could you take care of me? You could not care for you
I'm left with these horrible memories, time easing me, freeing me
Rise out of my conscious suppression and ask what the fuck?
What for?
Truth wakes in me from my experience, laugh wondering
What it means

Do not create so blindly, better your offerings
Lives are at stake, don't deny us the future
Powers beyond in our hands, ask yourself what it means
Never forget to look deep, finding thyself

Laws I was reborn with, God-like in character
Choice to create, I will not make that choice
Severing of my blood, extinction of my flesh
By my own hand, I can't deceive myself
Childhood wars, I suffered through them, my institution
Some pain will last, like time unchanged
Cannot forget, lost in illusion, trapped in confusion
Stress overwhelms my peace of mind

I was born from demons, from souls so far from peace
Ask where they came from, woke with them, spoke with them
They too came from demons, where can we all find peace?
Life should mean so much more, peace will come when we sleep
To live is to suffer tragically
My life is complete hell, infliction
I know I am not alone, suffering
We all have our own shit, infliction

Grasping of all meaning inside myself, what we must all endure
Constant awakening of what my spirit brings
Breathe from my strength, child of ignorance
Living in infliction, multiplied misery
Just part of birth, this is the consequence
What do I ask myself? This shit's just got to change
Some pain will last, living in infliction