dying at the speed of light [a verse done a second time]

(Album: B-Sides & Rarities Vol.3 [2011-2015] - 2015)

I asked the voices when they'll stop
They stopped already
I figured that a heavy heart to make ones pockets heavy
I feel my self awareness slipping away, bit by bit everyday, I can tell and yet I'm not objecting
Thoughts projecting losses all across external folders
These cords around my neck pulling me back, hurts to go forward
Viewing blue scenes still blue screens
Inside I loop screams until I lose steam
Do I miss her?
Do I miss love?
Do I miss company or all of the above?
Do I miss me?
Do I miss us?
Do I miss peace or do I simply miss the drugs?
Fact is, I'm missing out on now
Eyes to the ceiling, soul sinking to the ground
My mind escapes me, tears pouring down my face
Voices return chanting, "All is falling into place"

Anxiety persists got me posted by the window
Alas no one comes around
Sometimes I don't exist, I feel this when I'm indoors
The walls never make a sound
I keep flying at the speed of light
Trying at the speed of light
But I keep dying at the speed of light, though I ain't die yet
I might miss a beat tonight

Cogito ergo sum
There's something wrong with me, man
I've got evil in my tongue so the others don't respond to me
Fight visceral dichotomy I can't let myself get to me
Pondering lobotomy, considering lobectomy
The mirror shows an enemy
I guess I keep my foes close
Misery loves company, our dates are never postponed
Dancing in the darkest halls we've had a couple close calls
Two left feet but the devil doesn't loath those
Escaping the ozone again
On the bathroom floor with no clothes again
Almost succeed get so close, but then self pity sets in I postpone the end
But it gon' happen one day
Fail to take off and crumble on the runway
Yeah it gon' happen one day
When my heart stops, my brain freeze, my lungs break

Anxiety persists got me posted by the window
Alas no one comes around
Sometimes I don't exist, I feel this when I'm indoors
The walls never make a sound
I keep flying at the speed of light
Trying at the speed of light
But I keep dying at the speed of light, though I ain't die yet
I might miss a beat tonight