Enough

(Album: SANTIAGO - 2023)

Yeah

I wasn't right within, was lying tryna find a slim opening
To cope with grim realities of hopelessness
The casualties of broken men, unhappily devoted when
They hit me, all the walls were tryna kiss me, they were closing in
I'm soaking in a tub of how the fuck did this all happen?
Can I fasten my seatbelt before the tree and me are wrapped in
A blanket I can't escape? But the brakes that I have ain't braking
And the weight that I feel is aching, they say we don't feel the same shit
The pain isn't real, I'm famous, the cage that I'm in is dangerous
I'm chained, the perception anxious, every day I'm faced the anguish
Of faking and saving faces, so draining, I pray it changes
Self-hatred's an understatement for making the bed I lay in
My faith and my patience shaken, I'm craving a new awakening
I'm chasing myself, I'm waving, complaining that I'm evading
Betraying myself was straining and slayed by my past, I'm racing
That ancient indoctrination, I'm blazing whatever's failing
And scraping up the remaining, be shaping my soul creating
Embracing the new foundation, no swaying, no more decaying
The process of excavation, surveilling what needs replacing
This daily, can't get complacent, I'm taking solo vacations
I need solitude, I think a bottle too, many problems due
To not wanting to upset my family, plus I got the news
That sadness ain't allowed from the same crowd that turns around
And asks for sad songs, tell me how, 'cause as a man, you cannot frown
Don't make a sound, just a stand up proud
No one appreciating us until we're dead and underground
It's no surprise that suicide is super high, it's not unusual
'Cause men know that they only get their flowers at their funeral
We're hardening ourselves instead of gardenning ourselves
Suppressed emotions, we're alone, so now we're targeting ourselves
Don't wanna talk to out of pride, in fear of coming off weak
Some women looking at you lesser if there's tears on your cheek
But if there's tears tattooed, that same girl is a freak
So they attracted to the pain unless they hear the pain speak
Society romanticizing silent sufferers, stoicism is sexy
Unless he can't show that, he fucks with her, if that's your girl, be done with her
'Cause if you're numb to the pain, then you're numb to the pleasure
Whether it's sun or it's rain, to you it's all the same weather
These days I'm better off retreated and reserved
On a resort, then re-emerge feeling recharged and reassured that I'm
Enough

[Backwards:]
Then you're numb to the pleasure
I wanna feel like I'm myself
When they hit me, all the walls were
Before I leave, you should know
Easy to love you
Promise me