Okay

I fade into the background in my own life
I don't feel sad I guess, at least, I know I don't cry
I can't read intentions, and I find it hard to show mine
May be superhuman, but not super when I'm so blind
Always so ahead of me, and I can't even read the room
Talking in a melody, when I can't even speak in tune
All I know is jealousy, and I just want to see the truth
'Cause no one ever taught me all the social rules and secret cues
Even when we're special, there's a part that's always missing
Wish that I could listen, knowing that my life is still unwritten
But I'm searching for a purpose, and my reason for existence
In a world that's full of liars that will dress it up as wisdom
I'm not perfect, but I know that I should never lose control
We're all just slaves to our emotions, and the struggles that we hold
And I've been silencing my words, I don't want others getting hurt
But I keep feeling like I'm spilling out the cookie cutter mold
Another member of the Mob, but also always sticking out
I keep the fire on the hob because I'll never simmer down
I always felt like I was lost, whilst others had it figured out
But now I know I'm not alone, so I don't ever need to live in doubt

Take a breath and it's alright
We can fight in the darkest times
Be yourself and that's alright
And your life is what you decide

The light we hide can never fade, and given time we'll find a way
And I don't know if this is all I'm worth, but I will be okay
Through the night I count the days, I'd rather die than lie awake
And I don't know if I'll be happier, but I will be okay

One day I'll open up, but for now I'll keep it internal
All up in my mind like they got me running in circles
Always stay inside in my shell like I was a turtle
Just afraid of what's ahead, I'll be fine when I make the hurdles
When I socialize with others, I need a bit of rehearsal
What's even a point when I struggle at being verbal
The worst that it can hurt are from words I keep in my journal
I don't need another ear just to hear my heart turning purple
Wish this was forever, I wish we could be immortal
Talking with you's a different world like I walked through a portal
And so it's in how you're treated, I'm staying true to my morals
And never can count the days that I wish I could just be normal
Look, I'm sorry that I'm different than how you want me to be
Always at my throat, and they still expect me to breathe
Hit a different low that you wouldn't fucking believe
But I never cared what you think, look, I'm better when doing me

Take a breath and it's alright
We can fight in the darkest times
And I know what this is like
No matter if it's difficult, you always have to try
Be yourself and that's alright
And your life is what you decide
And we don't ever need to hide
Keep on learning to be happy with the person that's inside

The light we hide can never fade, and given time we'll find a way
And I don't know if this is all I'm worth, but I will be okay
Through the night I count the days, I'd rather die than lie awake
And I don't know if I'll be happier, but I will be okay

Woah, I will be okay