I Can't Believe I Died

Yeah
It's really over
I can't believe that I died
I do not exist
I am no longer alive
The wood turned to stone
Right before my eyes, and
Now I'm a memory inside of everyone's mind
I crossed the other side, I am on the other side
Will I meet God? Was I a matter of time?
Was my whole life a facade? Where is my mom?
I can't believe that I died
I can't believe that I I died
Wait, damn, I can't even say goodbye
To my daughter
I wanna hold her right now, and I wanna tell her I love her
I would give everything
I mean every single thing, if it means I could hug her
That's a moment I won't get
I'm feeling so much regret
Life came and went
I wish I would've appreciated every moment we spent
Nothing is left, damn
My life crashed and burned
Gone forever, I'll never return
I can't imagine the agony my mom is feeling
I know that she's gonna hurt
So will my dad, I know he's gon' break
Damn, I know he's gon' break
Not telling both of you
How much I love you is probably my biggest mistake
If I could go back in time
I would've did everything different
I would appreciate life
And would've actually lived it
I take my anger inside
And give my enemies forgiveness
The anger I held inside
Made my life feel like a prison
I would've stayed off my phone
I wasted all my time scrolling
Living my life through a screen
When I should've lived in the moment
Now I'm feeling this regret
And honestly I can't control it
'Cause I know that my motherfucking life is over
And it kills me to know it
And I'm hurt
Yo, all of this hurts
My daughter needs me
But I'm not around
I lie in the dirt
They always say
Don't take life for granted
But it's too late, I no longer have it
And yeah, you can pray
But there's no second chances
But I'm praying
Sorry if I'm out of line
But I need my life, I'm begging you, please
She's gonna be traumatized
The moment she walks up and she sees
A coffin where her father lies
And she's gonna scream, and she's gonna weep
And I don't wanna see her cry
I can't believe that I died
I reached the end
Damn, I never imagined this
The world I'm in
Stopped, it really went stagnant
I'm so perplexed
Shocked, don't know how to handle it
Knowing, knowing that I won't get a second chance again
Damn

Standing on the other side, I'm by myself
Missing you, realizing that my tears won't help
Always depressed, who saw the best in me
Now that I'm gone I rest in peace
My life flashed before my eyes
I'm wishing for one last time
I never saw my demise
I can't believe I died