WILSHIRE

(Album: CALL ME IF YOU GET LOST - 2021)

Mhm, fuck, yeah

Met you on a Saturday, knew it was something soon as you spoke it
Eye fucking across the table, don't think anybody noticed
You asked me if I was coming the city you from
Maybe we should kick it, I was interested, that would be dumb
If I denied long legs, good ears, great taste
Smell good, sense of humor, obvious a good face
And we clicked, we was at each other's hips
I ain't even wanna fuck 'cause your presence was enough
You and I make sense, you stay back at my tele'
We was chatting 'til morning, the vibrations was heavy
I wasn't drowning or yawning, that's when I told you my feelings
You told me you felt the same but you got homie you dealing with
Damn, I didn't know, that's a bit unexpected
But I get it, it's whatever, least I could do is respect it
We still gon' kick it and check-in like nothing could ever stop it
The problem is he my friend, but if I'm honest, I'm really hoping you drop him
It's morals I really have, it's lines I could never cross
But you got something that make all them good intentions get lost
I try to keep it together, never felt this way
We spent 'bout two weeks together, only skipped one day
And they say, "Bros over hoes," I'm like, "Mm, nah, hey"
I would rather hold your hand and have a cool handshake
But whatever, we still could be friends, it could still be champs
I'ma play it cool, we got something, we cannot pretend, uh, uh

It's, it's like starting a race
And then when you take off, they like, "No, no, it's not a end," huh
It was too late and shit

FaceTiming, that ain't 'bout nothing, you laughing, packing your luggage
It's nothing incriminating but please delete our discussions
You hit me with that look and replied like, "Duh, bitch"
Don't want your man to think that we creeping behind his back
Crossed the line, crossed the line, crossed the—, nah, we never did that
Though I haven't seen him in months, shit, it's rare he never hit back
Anyway, convince him to bring you to me so we could kick it
Right in front of his lenses, nothing here is malicious
You sat by me in that movie, we went outside for them doobies
We walking off when we talk, man, that nigga not fucking stupid
He see it, he know it's something we fronting like, "Ha-ha-ha"
Whenever we "Ha-ha-ha," we suddenly press his buttons
Not on purpose, but, man, I found my purpose
If I fuck our friendship up for you, I think it's worth it
But, nah, I can't do that, that nigga don't deserve it
And plus y'all got depth, I'm just the nigga on the surface, for real
Surface

I said surface, like, 'cause they got roots
Like, I'm the new nigga
But you know, they be fucking, haha
Yuh, yuh

Didn't see you a couple weeks, think he want you away from me
Know y'all argue 'bout if you mad, you met him before you met me
I feel guilty but not as much as I should
I tried to have that self-control but not as much as I could
I been down for days, you in my city and I can't see your face
I can't eat knowing you with him and not at my place
I never been jealous of another man
Especially when I have everything I want at hand
Except you, you

You know, I got every damn car, multiple cribs
But it's like, "No, I want that," haha

He left for some days, I cleared out my sched', I cleared out my head
You dropped off at mine, I say that we fled, "No, you pick a place"
Week in Tulum, a week in Capri, or die right here
As long as you with me, I'll be at peace, huh
You was supposed to go back home then see your bestie
I told you I can't hit that zone, too busy next week
You was like, "Hmm, I'll stay a week, she'll get over that"
Seven days with me, your nigga like, "Where the fuck you at?"
Dirtying my baking pot, tennis at my mama's spot
Chauffered in the Rolls, the back entrance for them restaurants
Parts playing chess games, giving wigs pet names
Manicures, night swims, Gerard providing methane
Shopping til we dropping, what you coppin'?
See, the price is not a option
It's investments 'cause your smile is the profit to me
I know around him, you gotta act like you not into me
I know your answer but you gotta keep it honest with me
Said you can't fully be into me 'cause you with him
Then why the fuck when we link it's like he doesn't exist?
And y'all know that we friends but we both aware that it's more
Everything I got, if you say the word, then it's yours
The only thing I'm missing in life, I know you could be it
And everyone around me that care 'bout me could see it
I could fuck a trillion bitches every country I done been in
Men or women, it don't matter, if I seen 'em, then I had 'em
But with you, it's a feeling 'cause we twinning and we matching
You stayed in the car when I went on date with that actress
Whole time I'm eating, I couldn't wait to get back
In the back of the car with you and talk about who we are
You told me when you with me, it's like heroin
Told me that your confidence went up since we befriended, and
Told me that you didn't wanna hurt him while we doing this
Told me this a awkward situation and you just wanna be through with it
Told me every time you not with him, it started problems, and
Told me every time you not with me, you always ponder
What type of sweater I'm wearing, what music have I been finding
Girl, you know that I'm a player whenever, that's what we bonded over
You said you told him the truth and you never lied
Now he looking at you with them eyes
We never crossed the line but he got every right to be a lil' pissed off
He picked you up, y'all got an argument, he got his shit off
My energy like, "Get lost," your energy just want peace
I couldn't even tell you his energy 'cause he don't speak
He ain't even call you his bitch
Until he see me make you smile, that nigga threatening as shit
I'm in the wrong, though
I picked you up, your energy off
Your lips really dry, something is off
You ask if I gotta, I ask if you gotta
We trip on our words, nobody is lying, hakuna matata
We sat in the car and cried for a hour
My shirt look like a showerhead got it, we called it off
I'll skip the details but that night I seen hell
You was in a room I was paying for, I took three Ls
Know I didn't sleep well, woke up and my knees fell
They buckled to the ground, I cannot walk, shit, I need 'Vil
Next day I'm driving 'round the city with no destination back-up
Water in my eyes kept falling like Niagara
Ville right beside me making sure I didn't crash or
Do something heinous 'cause I'm emotionally jabbed up
You checked every box, I thought it was it
Felt like I got led on and pushed off a cliff
No, I'm in the wrong, that was a friend
No, fuck that, the energy we had, never again we'll find it
You in the wrong, gotta remind you 'bout the times that you stepped
Gotta rewind it—aw, fuck
We talking 'bout our kinks, real cautious with the links
You don't do that type of shit when you in relationship
And you a hundred with your mate, so don't go acting like no saint
'Cause it's a two-way street, and shit, you knew what I was on
And while that nigga out and gone, shit, you was lounging in my home
Shit, I even let you meet my mama and y'all got along
But shit, I take my L, though, it's not fun
You still got your nigga and still had your fun
Shit, I can't even look at you and think about bad words
That's why I called and said we couldn't end this on bad terms
We straight like a bad perm, we'll always be good friends
And laugh about it on a sandy beach while our back burns, huh
This my perspective, this how I feel
I ain't fabricate nothing, I kept it real
I told you I loved you and always will
And if he ever put his hands on you, promise I get him killed, true
True, true, true, yeah

On God, I love that girlfriend
I'm a sh—, I'm a bad person, like, I'm in the wrong, I'm a bad person
I had no ill intentions, though
Shit, everybody got hurt
I got hurt, bruh
It's a shit situation
All the morals and power you have is vanished when a certain energy is nearing
And those feelings got so much gravity and it's out of your control
It made me realize that those don't know what they doing either
We're all just children
I ain't mean to fuck nobody's children, man
I thought I was bulletproof
She proved me wrong, man
I felt two hundred percent with her
It's beautiful
I was able to feel
But it was, it was bad timing
And I'm mad private with this side of my life 'cause people are weirdos, and
I just try to keep anyone I care about in the shadows
Safe from the commentary and spotlight and thoughts
'Cause it's just a story for the people outside of it
But I guess you're just another chapter in a book