insecure

(Album: Dear Paranoia, Sincerely, Me - 2020)

I wish that I could speak my mind,
But my words don't ever really come out right
My schooling stops at a GED
And all my friends have some other kinda degree

Watch me blow your mind
With a stutter and a rhyme
You'll wanna shut your eyes,
Cause I'm awkward and I sometimes blind

I'll say that I don't really care
I'll lie until you disappear
Gotta shut my eyes when I see a mirror,
Cause the truth is I'm pretty insecure

I'll lie and say I'm never scared,
But people are my biggest fear
Gotta shut my eyes when I see a mirror,
Cause the truth is I'm pretty insecure

I'm pretty insecure

I'm not that tall only five foot ten
And all my hair is falling out and I don't know if I fit in
I can do a lot with a pad and a pen,
But when there's people coming round I head right back where I began

Blowing your mind
With a stutter and a rhyme
You'll wanna shut your eyes,
Cause I'm awkward and I sometimes blind

I'll say that I don't really care
I'll lie until you disappear
Gotta shut my eyes when I see a mirror,
Cause the truth is I'm pretty insecure

I'll lie and say I'm never scared,
But people are my biggest fear
Gotta shut my eyes when I see a mirror,
Cause the truth is I'm pretty insecure

I'm pretty insecure

Tick tock tick tock I'm gonna go off
But I'm not a lot, I never show off
That's probably why I'm such a turn off
And cause of all these damn guys that take their shirts off

Nah, I'm fine right here, you make me nauseous
And I feel a lot less weird when I watch the office
That's why you'll find me right here, I hate your gossip
And I don't talk enough, but you talk too often

I grew up biblically raised
That's just a technical phrase
Don't think my friends think I'm saved
And I don't know what I should say

All their pathetic displays
Yeah, their prophetic Sundays
Yeah, it's what made me this way,
So insecure everyday

I'm not a typical man
I'm just too damn difficult
And I get real damn cynical
When you grab your pad and your pen

Cause I'm not clinical now
And I won't be clinical then
Yeah, all my invisible friends
They like me for who I am

I'll say that I don't really care
I'll lie until you disappear
Gotta shut my eyes when I see a mirror,
Cause the truth is I'm pretty insecure

I'll lie and say I'm never scared,
But people are my biggest fear
Gotta shut my eyes when I see a mirror,
Cause the truth is I'm pretty insecure

I'm pretty insecure