Damaged

(Album: Blackheart Boulevard - 2018)

I've been, I've been through a lot of crazy things in my life
And somehow you're always there to, always there to pick up the pieces
And accept me for who I am
So listen

I never meant for you to deal with all this pressure
Or for you to deal with all this pain that don't belong to you
You carry all my burdens from my past on a stretcher
So the very least that I can do is write this song for you
Baby you don't have to choose to stay but yet you do it anyway
And for a moment I get glimpses of what's in the heavens gates
You show me beauty in the rain, even smiling when it's pouring
The creases on the corners of my lips still feel so foreign to my senses
I sense that you might leave me in an instant
You don't, it's just my insecurities are up to mischief
You reassure me, you show me love and then it cures me
Not with words because the actions of your promise does it for me
It's lovely, I'm used to feeling cold that's below sub ze
Ro beneath my mind that if I wish I could not unsee
It's crazy, I know the baggage in my trunk is ugly
But you still choose to love me

How can you love someone so damaged?
Feel it in my palms
Feeling so beyond you don't know how to respond
Everyday this thing gets harder to manage
Been there from the start
Even when you saw the black that's covering my heart
I showed you scars that are deeper than what you have known
And you tell me I've never looked more beautiful
So I'm sorry that I'm damaged, I'm sorry for the pain
I'm sorry that you probably have to deal with it again

I said I'm sorry for the pain but I can't help this shit, I wish you never felt this shit
Promise you're my angel but Imma probably go to hell for this
Mentally I'm sick and I don't choose to break your fucking heart
My life's a tragic flick and I ain't choose to play this part
I'll take apart my heart and let you find the missing pieces
It's lost inside the dark and being consumed by all my demons
I slowly weaken, my wounds and cuts they only deepen
And while you heal me you become a victim of mistreatment
I'm fucking sorry, the traces of my past just taunt me
The future's daunting when the present feels so damn disheartening
How could you want me? You found me right when I had lost me
You hold me tight through all the fights although it's so exhausting
And it's so lovely, you never let the pressure crush me
I made you feel so low while you put no one else above me
I know the baggage in my trunk is ugly
And yet you still choose to love me

How can you love someone so damaged?
Feel it in my palms
Feeling so beyond you don't know how to respond
Everyday this thing gets harder to manage
Been there from the start
Even when you saw the black that's covering my heart
I showed you scars that are deeper than what you have known
And you tell me I've never looked more beautiful
So I'm sorry that I'm damaged, I'm sorry for the pain
I'm sorry that you probably have to deal with it again

I never meant for you to deal with all this pressure
Or for you to deal with all this pain that don't belong to you
You carry all my burdens from my past on a stretcher
So the very least that I can do is write this song for you