Cold Cruel World

(Album: Krimson Creek - 2008)

[Intro: Random people talking]
I don't know what to do anymore
After I quit with medicine I became psycotic
I suffer from depression
Complete depression
Had it my whole life
I have had it so bad that uh...
I had anxiety
Been diagnosed with major depression
Lots of phobias, lots of fears
Anxiety, panic attacks
Manic depression before, I didn't think that
Depression could be so bad

[Verse 1:]
Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everything around me closing in, it's starts to grow colder
It's like I'm sitting on death row and waiting for conclusion
Shits real fucked up, my brains filled with much confusion
Do you know what it is to sit a 3am
With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees praying
Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills
Cause the fucking rent's due and you can't pay bills
Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart
I'm talking rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart
Ten motherfucking seconds just from ending this shit
Flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit
Have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everything
Sat a half an hour, just thinking of a better way
To put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease
Put the barrel in my mouth, I wanna sleep for all eternity

[Chorus:]
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
I never asked to be alive
Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
I'll be better off when I'm gone
In my own private Hell and left all alone

[Verse 2:]
Somany reasons just to leave this fucking planet
Pressure gets to me so much, god damn, I just can't stand it
People hating, credit problems, bitch be fucking my friends
A million reasons, circumstances for your soul to transend
Nobody like me, I'm a loser, parents wish I was dead
I'm overweight, can't get a date, I'll turn my walls to red
Unlock the door, turn up the music, flip the T.V. screen
I'll leave a bloody fucking mess off for my moms to clean
It's's to the point that I can't stand it, I can't even try to cope
And you don't know me, you can't help me, you can't offer me no hope
It's too late to try and stop it, I have lost the fucking war
I ain't gonna write no fucking letter, leave my answers on the floor
I'm a do it I swear, don't even think I'm lying
Nobody gone remember me, nobody gone be crying
All alone in my death like I was in life
Let me take my final breath, they can bury me tonight

[Chorus:]
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
I never asked to be alive
Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
I'll be better off when I'm gone
In my own private Hell and left all alone

[Bridge:]
You won't miss me when I'm gone
(Flames rising, flames risin')
I know you did me so wrong
(Flames risin')

[Chorus/Outro:]
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
Flames rising, flames rising
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
Flames rising, flames rising
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
(just wipe away, just wipe away)
Flames rising, flames rising
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
(just wipe away, just wipe away)
Flames rising, flames rising
Dear cold cruel world why am I here?
Flames rising, flames rising
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
Flames rising, flames rising