Rookie

(Album: After The Eulogy - 2000)

I never thought this could be me
I guess you never do
'Til it's happening to you
Like all the fun turns into shame
And all the could-have-beens
Rearrange

So little time, so many crimes
Guilt like a chain
Chokes my will away
Redemption never seemed so cruel
And all my gods
Never seemed so weak

Wake up, engage
Now derailed and enraged
It used to be so easy
Get up, I'm game
Now I'm sick and I'm tame
Counting cost with lost

Where is the hope they gave
And don't think that I can't hear you laugh
I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me, I'm only me

Drink to pills, to shots
Turns into shock
A habit and a pawn
For every hand goes round
The pain gets so damn loud
The hammer hits and I'm down, and I'm down, and I'm down, and I'm down

Trust no one, hey, why should I
They gave me the poison dressed like life
Cheated, smacked up and diseased
Cry to sleep and fight to eat

Used to be a pro at this
Now I've broken my own wrist
Rotten teeth and life unsung
You'll forget me when I'm gone

Wake up, engage
Now derailed and enraged
It used to be so easy
Get up, I'm game
Now I'm sick and I'm tame
Counting cost with lost

I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me
I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me, I'm only me