Right Now

(Album: Lamp City 2 - 2020)

Something 'bout the way your face hit in that winter light
It had me feeling like a spaceship, about to take a flight
You and me been on this race and I never made you mine
Maybe 'cause all my relations were never justified
Looking for someone like you
Help me do the things I need
I don't really leave my house
Other people run from me
Promise I don't act the same
Demons got the best of me
I feel like I'm out of luck
Almost lost myself today
I've been trying to break out of this cycle
Of these thoughts that go in spirals
When I say "I will tomorrow"
I just wake up and in sorrow
I don't wanna go out young
But maybe that's not up to me
Maybe if I do die young then you can keep me company

When these lights turn off
And these people stop coming
When these fake friends stop calling
And these royalties are nothing
Who gon' ride with me? Yeah
Who gon' roll up, who gon' die for me? Yeah

I don't want to wait for it all to come crashing down
I just wanna be right here, right now
It's not complicated, it's so basic
Why I chase it? I can't face it
All these places that my mind go
I know, I know I got my lows

Yeah
Family problems got me stressing
Mom saying she in depression
Ever since an adolescent
I been trying to just be present
Trying to find my peace and Heaven
Now I'm turning twenty-seven
And my friends been talking to me
But I never hear the lessons
Late nights when I do my job
Lately, I've been getting by
Trying to get on health insurance
So that I can check my mind
Struggling to figure out
Why I got this pain inside
If I had a second chance, I would've given you a ride

'Cause when these lights turn off
And these people stop coming
When these fake friends stop calling
And we stop having discussions
Who gon' ride with me?
I'm crying for you, who gon' cry for me?

I don't want to wait for it all to come crashing down
I just wanna be right here, right now
It's not complicated, it's so basic
Why I chase it? I can't face it
All these places that my mind go
I know, I know I got my lows
I don't want to wait for it all to come crashing down
I just wanna be right here, right now