(Wish I Didn't Have To) Lie

(Album: Heartbroken And Milking It - 2021)

I don't hate you
I just hate the way I miss you
And I hate the way it hits me at night

You ruined the J-Train
You ruined Fleetwood for me too
I only think about the good days
Know it's cause I'm scared to let go of you

You fucked up New Jersey, you fucked up the way I see myself
I don't think of how you hurt me
But it hurts like hell

It means I'm still in denial, it's a cycle
Another year flies by
It means that I'm still waiting for the day you show up at my door

Oh I don't hate you
I just hate the way I miss you
And I hate the way it hits me at night

I don't hate you
I just hate the way I love you
And I hate the way I tell myself I'm fine

You messed up late-night drives
You messed up Target for me too
I don't throw away our Polaroids
I think it's cause I'm scared to tell the truth

It's always the littlest things
Sweatshirts and video games
You probably don't feel the same

I don't hate you
I just hate the way I miss you
And I hate the way it hits me at night

I don't hate you
I just hate the way I love you
And I hate the way I tell myself I'm fine

I wish I didn't have to lie
Ooh, ooh (Ooh, ooh)
Wish I didn't have to lie
Ooh, ooh (Ooh, ooh)

I don't hate you
I just hate the way I miss you
And I hate the way it hits me at night

I don't hate you
I just hate the way I love you
And I hate the way I tell myself I'm fine

I wish I didn't have to lie
Wish I didn't have to lie