Perfect Essence

(Album: Capture Enemy Soldiers - 2004)

[UBI:]
Before my life took the direction it has
I use to run around in the backyard playing catch with my dad
Hopping the fence to play with neighborhood kids
It seemed like every day was good
Doing stupid shit but never behaving the way we should
A raised Christian influenced as a youth by the crucifix
Switched to public education but never did really get used to it
In childhood foolishness
Went from gifted and talented and honor roll
To shop lifting at Conoco
Sneaking in Grouper 6
Nemesis on Nintendo
Posted up in the Electronics department at Target
All day playing Genesis demos
Starving
Shined in the darkness with Kevin
And raising funds
In the parking lot of the supermarket
Bumming change for Laser One
Running game on Asians, I'd spend hours taking tokens
Finding ways to aggravate 'em
Beat 'em till the game was broken
With Jason, stealing for me was too easy
We use to jack toys, go home, open 'em up
Bumping Whodini and the Fat Boys
Mom strove a trooper
Had a crush on Punky Brewster
For years I wondered if Fred Savage fucked with Winnie Cooper
I was just a skinny loser
A prepubescent virgin
Uncertain and full of question eyes that never seen deception
Yes

It happened after birth so let's get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now I'm using words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive, I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing most everthing that's
Happened since after birth so let's get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now I'm using words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive, I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing what makes me angry

Yeah this is that character that I have been waiting to build
That has nothing at all to do with how I'm stating my skill
(Nothing at all)
Cause I'll stay screaming at you cats till I turn gray in the gills
I seen you swerving, going off the road so straighten the wheel
And while you try to get there first, you know the race isn't real
They say when there's a bill there's a way
So why you're wasting your will?
I love my memories of my mom and pop but I'm erasing 'em still
Took a few shots and I chased 'em with pills
Cause of this spot that I grew up's the only place that I feel
(Only place that I feel)
I love smashing out on my bike but always hated the hills
Who, me, making a killing?
I have yet to make one shilling
While some look over my shoulder just for the sake of stealing
Aware or not they read your brain
I swear to God you'd be amazed
Cause villains these days'll find a way to rape the women
How many were crushed in rubble, just couldn't escape the building
In war, there is no winner consider the fate of children
(Remember that)
Powerless as we're housing terrorists within our borders
Men in camouflage and automatic weapons on every corner
Bombing the block outside got you thinking this can't be real
(This can't be real)
Now you feeling the way the kids in Afghanistan feel

It happened after birth so let's get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now I'm using words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive, I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing most everthing that's
Happened since after birth so let's get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now I'm using words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive, I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing what makes me angry

Yeah I've grown accustomed what can I say, I know it sucks
(Yeah, it sucks)
But it's so close to hell I can almost feel the gates opening up
How's that for some motivation?
After we vote to change it
And it's legal the people will see the last of their sober days then
We stay oppressed and
I'll actually know we're safe when
We raise our voices against the contracts of this covert nation
We're faded into black (fading into black)
And I'm making my own arrangements
Look past your speculation
'Cause these acts of devastation
Won't bring back a better nation
Keep an eye out for the crack down
Try not to act out
'Cause they'll find your sack on the pat down
Crowds now a days too tough to entertain
I don't know why I rap
You can watch the world by day by day
On C-span and Simulcast
I get depressed and run away
And numb the pain and shit's suppressed
Like memories and younger days
That hits the chest like love and hate
It's give or take
But what a way
To live a life
When men are mice
Some picking Ces
You pick a side, whoever pays the better price

Come back to Earth so let's get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now I'm using words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive, I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing most everthing that's
Happened since after birth so let's get past the first impression
I moved to an urban setting now I'm using words for weapons
Once passive now turned aggressive, I guess it's the Ces that changed me
Rap with the perfect essence expressing what makes me angry