anyone but her

(Album: started in college (mixtape) - 2020)

It's cold in New York
She found a lover that could keep her warm
Breathing snowflakes from the moment she woke up
'Cause she was never enough
Her mind is numb
She calls her parents for the things that she's won
Maybe then they'll say they're proud of what she's become
'Cause she was never the one

At least if she was hurting
She could feel it every day
Bet it all on Narcan
So she slowly slipped away

That same night in her regular bar
A Piece of her died, trying to get too far
She could only see
What she was taught to believe
She lost her fight, that's the fucked up part
A piece of her died 'cause she tried too hard
To be anyone but her
Was exactly what she wanted to be

One hour of sleep, no more
She would go to class in clothes from the night before
Convinced herself it was better
She was keeping up with the lectures
While everything else made her dead inside
Maybe she'd be fine with one more line

At least if she was hurting
She could feel it every day
Bet it all on Narcan
So she slowly slipped away

That same night in her regular bar
A Piece of her died, trying to get too far
She could only see (only see)
What she was taught to believe (what she was thought to believe)
She lost her fight, that's the fucked up part
A piece of her died 'cause she tried too hard
To be anyone but her
Was exactly what she wanted to be

Anyone but her
Anyone but her
Anyone but her
Anyone but her
Anyone but her
Anyone but her

That same night in her regular bar
A Piece of her died, trying to get too far
She could only see
What she was taught to believe
She lost her fight, that's the fucked up part
A piece of her died 'cause she tried too hard
To be anyone but her
Was exactly what she wanted to be