Agoraphobia

(Album: Idealism - 2020)

I've been tripping over more than anxiety
Stop fucking bugging me
You need to come out with that new shit
All I need is to be somebody's company
Or to feel something
But I've gotta live and make do

I don't feel like my old self
How do I live when it's nothing I have felt?
What if what I felt was fear or death itself?
What if I don't get a hold of my mind and my health?

I'm a mess
Don't fall for my disguise
Oh, how I love it when you look into my mind
Empty all the time when I look into my eyes
Watching all the days go by
Prognosis classified
How do I get by when I feel so dead inside?
I don't understand it, but it looks so fake outside
I'm not satisfied that my mind is unaligned
Levitating in delirium of helpless cries

I don't know what it is that I still long for
Or who this song is for
But I've gotta lay off the abuse
Hopefully I can feel like my mind's not a chore
Bad headspace mental war
You've just gotta learn to let loose

I don't feel like my old self
How do I live when it's nothing I have felt?
What if what I felt was fear or death itself?
What if I don't get a hold of my mind and my health?

I'm a mess
Don't fall for my disguise
Oh, how I love it when you look into my mind
Empty all the time when I look into my eyes
Watching all the days go by
Prognosis classified
How do I get by when I feel so dead inside?
I don't understand it, but it looks so fake outside
I'm not satisfied that my mind is unaligned
Levitating in delirium of helpless cries

I will always be here for you to fill your needs
Music is all I've left to bleed
I hope that one day you can see
I just wanna set you free
Be who you think you should be
Don't let fear of failure tell you that's something you can't achieve