There Goes My Innocence

(Album: Dirty Pretty Things - 2019)

When I was a little girl I had all these dreams of the world
And I thought, well I can't wait to be a grown up
So I can date, so I can kiss the boys and we can play with each other's toys
I guess I just wanted affection, I just wanted a little protection
But boys will be boys
And a boy is not a man
But I was too young to know this
Too naive to understand
That you give em' an inch, they'll take a mile
Laugh at you while you cry in a pile
And all you can think is that you'd rather die
Cause the truth is you're already dead inside

There's goes my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah
There's goes my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah

When I was fourteen you stole my virginity
I was too drunk to scream and way too scared to make a scene
I went to a river party (yeah)
And I followed him down the path (yeah)
He laid me on the gravel and he fucked me just like that
The rest is a little blurry
But I think I blocked it out
Like a scene in a movie you cover your eyes so you don't have to live through the shame and the blame
And I doubt it didn't happen
Cause it fucked me up for years
Turned me into someone who lives on edge everyday in fear
And I know I appear to be okay now
And I guess I made it this far
But the truth is I bury my burdens, they never stop hurting
It's only a matter of time, 'til you see all my scars, 'til I paint them on my canvas
And if you relate then you feel the hate towards the ones who take advantage

There's goes my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah
There's goes my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah, my innocence yeah