Cycle

(Album: Through The Static - 2019)

There's a tiny office building in your head filled with many busy executives who make all your decisions for you. Each executive has a monkey demon on his back who makes him work hard and each demon has another demon on his back. And those demons have demons... demons... demons

Yeah I bet they love me when I'm dead and gone
Yeah and everybody's gonna sing me songs
See I've been trying to get along
But don't nobody know my name
And I've been sick of playing around with all these fucking games
And way before I lost my mind and my got wrist tatted
It sounded great when no one knew me and I didn't matter
I didn't care about the music I just hated how I felt
And so I did all of the drugs trying to find myself

Homie yes I be spitting this from the bedroom floor
When no one thought I would be anything better than a pilled out poet
Known it from the ground up
Started writing down some
Things that I was feeling
I didn't know that I found love
And If I'm being real I still don't know where I been going
Blowing candles out at every birthday with a wish to show me
Cause I'm afraid of what's gon' happen if I don't make it
But more afraid of what"ll happen if I do so

I got some issues creeping up that I will still ignore
I got some friends who might be dead but we don't talk no more
And my girl tripping still worried about my mental
Health and I don't want to take the pills that they give you

Issues running maybe I ain't dying yet
Cause even in depression I'm a God damn stubborn mess
This roller coaster isn't all that it's cracked up to be
And I'm just waiting for the day that I can leave

I know all the light will fade before I go
And this life, it feels like a cycle
Yeah around it goes and then around it goes and then around it goes
I know all the light will fade before I go
And this life, it feels like a cycle
Yeah around it goes and then around it goes and then around it goes

Now everybody has a change of heart
I take apart my own to find where I went wrong but don't know where to start
And all the music shits amazing til it's not
And I don't know how long this high is gonna last so I just keep it up
These matters of emotion Trying to keep the focus
Working on a perfect combination for a magic potion
To happiness but its impossible to tell
Because the grass is always greener when you water everybody else

Yeah said I would never be anything what do you know
When I get to looking around at the people at shows
And all of them know the words
And sing them back like they're letting go
Of the pain I know I'll never have to be alone
Cause inside we're all the same
We run from everything
Low blows and wedding rings
Slow go down lone roads
And don't cope with anything
Sometimes I wonder if this love will go away
Cause, its still impossible to sleep so

I got some issues creeping up that I will still ignore
I got some friends who might be dead but we don't talk no more
And my girl tripping still worried about my mental
Health and I don't want to take the pills that they give you

Issues building. Maybe I won't make it yet
Cause even when I'm winning I don't know how to take a breath
This roller coaster isn't anything I thought it'd be
And I'm just waiting for the day that I can sleep

I know all the light will fade before I go
And this life, it feels like a cycle
Yeah around it goes and then around it goes and then around it goes
I know all the light will fade before I go
And this life, it feels like a cycle
Yeah around it goes and then around it goes and then around it goes