Different

(Album: Our Beautiful Mess - 2021)

There's a hole in my stomach and my heart
And I don't know how to fill it
I let you go, though we're only a couple miles apart
Yet I don't know where you're living
'Cause all you ever said to me, "I don't live far"
Too far away to hold, but close enough to scar
And damn, it's been a few
But do I still miss you

Wish you and I were different
Too late for me to miss your touch
'Cause now you're way too distant
But close enough to mess me up
I'm holding onto something
And I don't know what it is
Wish you and I were different
'Cause together we're too different to exist

Spent lonely nights with lonely people I don't know
Just so I can let you go, but it ain't working
I miss your eyes and that you were the life of all of my parties
Touching your soul and caressing your body when you were hurting
I miss when we were driving, driving in your car
Now I still don't have a license, but a broken heart
And damn, it's been a few
But do I still miss you

Wish you and I were different
Too late for me to miss your touch
'Cause now you're way too distant
But close enough to mess me up
I'm holding onto something
And I don't know what it is
Wish you and I were different
'Cause together we're too different to exist

I've been trying to let you go
I've been trying to let you go, nah, nah, nah
I'm trying to let you go
I've been trying to let you go, nah, nah, nah
I'm trying to let you go
I'm trying to let you go, nah, nah, nah
I'm trying to let you go
'Cause together we're too different to exist

Wish you and I were different
Too late for me to miss your touch
'Cause now you're way too distant
But close enough to mess me up
I'm holding onto something
And I don't know what it is
Wish you and I were different
'Cause together we're too different to exist