Trans Mantra

(Album: Sex Education: Songs From Season 3 - 2021)

I wake up early to get things started
I do my make up and I do my hair
I practice walking and speaking softly
So it looks easy as if I don't care

On bad days I take it slowly
On good days I'm up and out in an hour
The past is over it's just behind me
It's getting closer but it holds no power

I don't want to know
I don't want to know what they're saying about me
I don't want to know
I don't want to show that it devastates me

I'm living somewhere nobody goes to
I'm speaking in a language nobody talks
The window broken, a cold wind blows through
My soul a series of electrical shocks

A failed equation, a hypothetic
A woman standing but constructed to fall
Existing as a minimalism
Only just barely as a woman at all

I don't want to know
I don't want to know what they're saying about me
I don't want to know
I don't want to show that it devastates me

I don't want to know (I don't want to)
I don't want to know what they're saying about me (I don't want to know)
I don't want to know (I don't want to)
I don't want to go where the demons breed (I don't want to know)

(I don't want to)
(I don't want to know)
(I don't want to)
(I don't want to know)
(I don't want to)
(I don't want to know)