Misery

(Album: Envy - 2020)

I've been sipping rye like it's H2O
Drowning in spirits while living like a ghost
Searching for God at the bottom of bottles
And losing myself in the process
I keep breaking down like a beat-up truck
Sleeping at the wheel with my eyes sealed shut
Wallow in pity, this city has plenty like me
How the hell did I wind up here?

Lying in a ditch
Talking to myself
Like I flipped a switch
Became someone else
Eventually my tendencies
Might push you away
Please, please, stay

Take me for all that I have to offer
I'm a broken mess
Can you stitch me up and mend me?
Can you make me whole again?
Sorry for the hell I drag you under
I did not intend
To become what I am, the shell of a man
Misery really does love company

I've been throwing stones at the looking glass
Denying what I am, denying what I have, oh
The delusion I'm choosing, the truth is it chose me
Coursing through my veins like gas in an IV
Stuck on cruise control, bracing for the impact

Lying in a ditch
Lying to myself
And the worst part is
You always tried to help
My tendencies, they seem to be
Pushing you away
Please, please, stay

Take me for all that I have to offer
I'm a broken mess
Can you stitch me up and mend me?
Can you make me whole again?
Sorry for the hell I drag you under
I did not intend
To become what I am, the shell of a man
Misery really does love company

You deserve the better man
The better man

Maybe I get caught up in the sound
Of you crying over me
A vicious cycle, we
Just keep spinning around and around

Take me for all that I have to offer
I'm a broken mess
Can you stitch me up and mend me?
Can you make me whole again?
Sorry for the hell I drag you under
I did not intend
To become what I am, the shell of a man
Misery really does love company

You deserve much better