home is lonely

(Album: patience - 2022)

I remember being 13
Having my first drink
Throwing up inside the kitchen sink
It was you and I, on the same side
Getting high, chasing paradise

Now suddenly we're 18
Doing the same thing
Drinking the same drinks
When I look around
No one else is even dying to get out

I held my breath
Took a plane out west
I left to be happy
And now you hold it against me

Tell me, how could home be the place that makes me lonely?
And everyone that knows me, doesn't know me at all
I didn't think that changing would turn my friends to strangers
Is this life worth the chase if there's nobody to call?

I know we wasn't raised that way
There's certain things you just don't say
When you're supposed to be my best mates
Now I'm alone when I celebrate

We wanted to be astronauts, movie stars
Millionaires with fancy cars
I didn't think they'd tear us all apart

Tell me, how could home be the place that makes me lonely?
And everyone that knows me, doesn't know me at all
I didn't think that changing would turn my friends to strangers
Is this life worth the chase if there's nobody to call?

It fucking kills me to say it
I had to lose you to change me
I feel so lost and I hate it
I had to lose you to change me

Tell me, how could home be the place that makes me lonely?
And everyone that knows me, doesn't know me at all
I didn't think that changing would turn my friends to strangers
Is this life worth the chase if there's nobody to call?

It fucking kills me to say it
I had to lose you to change me
I feel so lost and I hate it
I had to lose you to change me