The Guardian (Ellie's Song)

When does it get quiet?
Time was supposed to extinguish the desire
But the embers won't snuff out

Haunted by your smiles
The mask keeps getting heavier
One step forward, two steps back

There's a noose round my neck and the further I get
It's harder & harder to breathe
Can I find a way to cut the rope?

I've been waiting for dawn
But the light is all gone
Don't know if I'm already blind
Can I leave it all behind?

What's it really for if it's not yours and it's not mine?
This victory is not what I hoped for
How was I to know that everything would end up like this?
Survival of the fittest... of sorts

So I've become the bringer of death
A lover of life
The one who guards from the dark of the night
I'll be the hammer of war
Justice & mercy don't live side by side
So in retribution I abide
I'll tip the scales to justice's end but can it make amends?

Kill or be killed... what a way to live and die
I just can't see this cycle ever ending
How can I correct the damage done when I can't feel the consequences of my recourse

So I've become the bringer of death
A lover of life
The one who guards from the dark of the night
I'll be the hammer of war
I've been waiting for dawn
But the light is all gone
Don't know if I'm already blind
Can I leave it all behind?