A Million Times

(Album: Self Medicated - 2020)

I roll up to smoke, I started to blow
I took me a trip down an old back road
And time moves fast, nothing lasts
I'm still traumatized by my thoughts of the past
In the kitchen you was doing the dishes
Starting off with some kissing and then we got down to business
Ended up by the stove, my hands around your throat
Just the way you like it baby, you already know

Shorty won't let me hit, she mental
I fucked up again, she 'bout to act up
What's that long face for? That's that sad stuff
These back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me

You broke my heart a million times, but I won't let it happen
You got your space and I got mine, but I won't let it happen
Iou, iou, these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me
Iou, iou, these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me

So where do we go from here?
When it all used to be so clear
You got me facing the things I fear
Has it all just disappeared?

Been through it, this ain't nothing new to me
Spent my time confusing you, got used to you just using me
Always back and forth, dealing with each other's scrutiny
We did it so ruthlessly yet it was so beautifully
Wish I could take it all back
Swear I would do anything to keep that train on the tracks
There's so much pain in my chest, thinking of lessons I learned
I watched the house go up in flames and I just let that shit burn

Shorty won't let me hit, she mental
I fucked up again, she 'bout to act up
What's that long face for? That's that sad stuff
These back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me

You broke my heart a million times, but I won't let it happen
You got your space and I got mine, but I won't let it happen
Iou, iou, these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me
Iou, iou, these back roads don't ride like that road where you rode with me

So where do we go from here?
When it all used to be so clear
You got me facing the things I fear
Has it all just disappeared?