Swive

(Album: Splish - 2015)

This is the moment that we thought would never come
Is it fleeting?
I'm bleeding from my heart, forever young
Our first meeting
But we talked for years over the phone
You'd text me dirty pictures when I was feeling alone
Scandalous, both of us involved on and off
But the stamina we had
Would have never let it damage what we had
I'm an animal
Now, I see you there
Standing in my hotel room with your camera
I'm headed to Angelo, laid over in Dallas
You asked me to come stay over at your palace
I'm headed down the rabbit hole with Alice
I was drinking heavy then
Tried to stop, the hospitals in Texas don't know anything
This is the moment that we thought would never come
I was touring, I was soaring back and forth
Your life was boring, no offense
But I'm sure it was less stressful and more stable
You knew me before I had been exiled by my label
Even back when I was in jail, you were always sending me mail
Never thought we'd meet
Is this a dream? What is happening now?
Texting me when I hit Texas, somehow you found out
Which might sound crazy otherwise, but it was you
I think I was proud
Now, this is the moment that we thought would never come, and now we're lost in time
You brought me a bottle of wine, I was already drunk
Drunk as an empty cup
Bible pages ripped to shreds all over the floor
What the fuck was I so angry for?
This is the moment, own it, feel it, make it real
The walls are breathing heavy, and you're shaking
And I get nervous too, but I can fake it
You tell me I am much taller in person
I tell you I'm much smaller when I'm naked, and you laugh
I see the ice and break it and sculpt it into a swan
I know your heart's been broken before, tonight I'm hoping it's not
Please, open a slot
Reserve for the boy that returned to you
While you were walking alone in the dark
To your home in the corner
Before you were driving a car
You were just seventeen
I was in Philly, a million miles away
Living my life in a violent haze
Of trial and error, wallow and biodegrade
This is the moment, I know it
The one that we thought wouldn't come but it came
It's a shame that I had to be drowning in sauce
But I felt I must entertain
But I can remember surrendering vividly still
The temperature rising inside of that room in the spring
We bloomed, the memory's giving me chills
And now that the moment's arrived
The moment we waited for then
Is now momentarily here, and we're just afraid it'll end

When you're alone (You're alone) and feel scared (And feel scared)
Know a part of me (A part of me) is still there (Is still there)
I'm leaving soon (I'm leaving soon), my bags are packed (My bags are packed)
I promise you (I promise you) that I'll be back (That I'll be back)
When you're alone (You're alone) and feel scared (And feel scared)
Know a part of me (A part of me) is still there (Is still there)
I'm leaving soon (I'm leaving soon), my bags are packed (My bags are packed)
I promise you I'm already back

Promise you, promise you
'Ready back, 'ready back