Lonely

(Album: Abstract Art - 2015)

Yeah uh huh lord yeah alright, yeah, huh

I am fatigued
I give it my all with my music people do not recognize the passion I have for the craft
The effort I'm giving with every line are ridiculous
Life has affected my content
All of the sins that would sit on my conscience
Insecurities that I am possessing
Why is my death in the constant obsession
I am afflicted
Thinking about the life I chose
And the path the young nigga moving on
And I been down and out
Because I was looking for the answer
But never really had no questions
Tell me that I'm accepted
I'm getting sicking tried of rejection
I said I can't deal with nonsense
The pain been constant
And I wish I wasn't this depressed
So I can deal with the stress I feel at all times
I'm debating what the fuck I'mma do with the kid
Cause' hope it does weed
Nigga, I can take the D to the Depths of your soul with the list of my goals
That I could never attain and you will take in vain
I tried to explain and give you my pain
Take a listen to the record and tell me I'm insane
With the way I was raised, I swear I've never been trained
Prepared to be alone
Like a predator tone
I've been looking for the meaning of a life
With the voice in my head trying get it alright
I can never get a light
When I felt like I needed it
Proceeded with my genius
Conceiving this, the meanest shit
You will be of a pain
And the sickest nigga that picked up the pen
I guess it all depends up on the mood that I'm in
And the mindstate in which that I write this
Putting my time in
I redefine what it means
Commended for my dedication
You never related, relay all my pain in the passages
Written on pages
There's really no pages to stretch of the sins
Cause' the sinners may say I give you the truth
And it's never debated
Degraded by hatred
And giving your ignorant comment to see full accomplice of reason
My love is abolished

Lawd!
I'm writing a story that you couldn't fathom, yeah
I'm giving a vision that you could imagine, yeah
Do I wanna live is the question that I been asking
All the pain that I put into my lyrics
I wonder if anyone can really grasp it, lawd
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Yeah, you're wondering what is my thesis
Why am I lonely when people are phony
I felt that I needed someone to believe in, lawd!

Tell me that you into real shit
Then take a second and listen you'll feel this
As I reminisce on my self-esteem
That would evaporate in my adolescence
Turned introspected, felt so dejected
I should use a noose as a newest necklace
I'mma set the scene from my wildest dreams
And if I was in ever in a valley of shadow of death
I wanna be the motherfucker you define the best
With the ride to attest releasing all stress
I confess that I speak of a life from my view
With deceive and disciple
With the blood and the pew
Stain the white flag you that you use for truces
All bets are off, there's no more illusions
And anyone wanna get a division is confusing
And I really want a nigga I want to infuse them
My flows amusing, niggas are so clueless
Blind to all facts and don't know where truth is
I put it all on wacks and backtrack maneuvers
I try to succeed and you associated
All my fucking pain has been deregulated
In my isolation, I was hesitating
Now I'm terrified and that I will never make it
Life is so evasive
I could make a statement
Now I'mma signify what this shit really means
That's another part that you'll never get
Unless I paint a picture you could visualize
That was so surprising
Nigga I comprise it
That's the endless shit for you to realize
That I am so lonely
I am so lonely
I am so lonely
Lawd!