Lay Your Head Down

(Album: Bold - 2017)

Lay your head down,
Lay your head down,
Lay your head down on me.

What is the state of your heart?
Is it concave?
Are you awake?

Sometimes when I cry,
I start to cry harder simply because I am crying,
Or I cry because I know that in the world somewhere there are little girls wearing tutus and singing Christmas songs,
Or because Sarah McLaughlin comes onto my TV and tells me about the cats and the dogs that don't have homes.
(Fuck you Sarah McLaughlin)

I cry because on the internet there are pictures of pigs wearing rain boots,
And there are pictures of Sharpe puppies that looks like rolled up towels,
The internet is great!

Sometimes I cry when cheese is really good,
When I've made onions…
That's just human..
I cry because they call me fat, even though I am fat
because most of the time a word is just a word until it is not just a word, it is a weapon,

I cry because there is death,
I cry because people die and maybe the last thing they thought of was their children,
And I cry because I don't have children yet,

I cry when there is no end and I cry when there is an end,
And I cry because you love me so well,
Because I used to cry alone because I wanted to die,
And now I cry harder because your shoulder is so soft,
Because the sunset is so beautiful on the Connecticut river,
I cry because I am scared I am losing my mind,
Or because I'm on meds,
Or I'm crying because I forgot my meds,
Or I'm crying for the fact…

Maybe I'm not actually myself,
I'm crying because I am myself and that doesn't feel like enough,

Lay your head down,
Lay your head down,
Lay your head down on me,

What is the state of your heart?
Is it concave?
Are you awake?

I cry because of guns,
People get shot for what?
For pride and things I cant understand,
I cry because I don't understand the world,

But I cry because there is also good,
There is also chocolate cake,
And love and Harry Potter and the brilliant gasps of holding a hand,
There is also love letters and first kisses and second kisses and third kisses,
And hammocks.
I love hammocks.

I cry because I am so well,
Because I live so well,
And how could one person possibly live with all of this life,

Lay your head down
Lay your head down,
Lay your head down on me,

What is the state of your heart?
Is it concave?
Are you awake?