Oxygen

(Album: Winter Heartbreak II - 2021)

The universe is expanding, the universe keeps growing
I reached the end of the universe, said "fuck it", kept going
For trillions upon trillions upon trillions of miles
There was nothing, there was no one...
And then I saw a house, and I looked inside the house
And sitting there was a man
And sitting next to the man
Was a woman, they were smiling
They were holding each other's hands
And the closer that they grew
I realized the couple was me and you
And I had one question I could ask:
Did this moment happen in the future or the past?

All I wanna do is travel to another universe
I'm probably the weirdest fucking person on this stupid Earth
I've never been accepted by the people that are normal
So I'm slipping through a stargate, man, I'm leaving through a portal
'Cause I'm socially so awkward, I'm emotionally bonkers
And I'm hoping that I'm not another ghost in the apocalypse
I don't need any oxygen, I'm breathing in the essence
Of a technicolor omnipresent demon in his presence
And I got a lot of memories that hurt me when I think about 'em
Hands are full of blisters, I was climbing up the steepest mountain
Every time I tripped into the bottom, I just fell again
And here it doesn't flower in a garden full of skeletons
And every time a wound appears, I keep it like a souvenir
I dip my pen into it like there's gotta be some truth in here
The cause and the effect is that I'm constantly affected
By the cost to your affection and your condescending messages
The comedy, the misery, the convoluted memories
The consolation symmetry, the coffin that you built for me
The Odyssey, the Iliad, the oddities, the pyramids
The harmony of spirits when the bond is truly fearless
And I'm probably the weirdest fucking person in this galaxy
My head is getting heavy full of misery, you'd have to use a
Guillotine to even out the chemical imbalance
So decapitate my crown and then you send me into silence
And my feet are just so horribly callused, as I'm bleeding
The aurora borealis and I'm hoping for some meteors
To pour on me in showers 'cause I feel so fucking lonely
I'm performing in a theater alone where no one's gathered
And I'm probably the weirdest fucking person in the history
Of history itself, the key to heaven: just to get to be alive
For a moment where I don't feel scared
That if I died right now you wouldn't care

I am too fucking in love with you to ever be
Only your friend, you better treat me like an enemy
I have used up every single drop of energy
As long as I'm alive, your word's killing me
I am too fucking in love with you to ever be
Only your friend, you better treat me like an enemy
I have used up every single drop of energy
As long as I'm alive, your word's killing me