Improve

(Album: Taking Up Space - 2020)

10/17/14
Everything is wrong now
Nothing left for me
All my friends are gone now
And it's storming
Sounds like a tin roof
Motherfucking pouring
And I'm fucked up (fucked up)
And I'm let down (let down)
It's probably best if you think that I'm a pest now
You can find me at home, on my own
With a blunt up in my hand
And my money in the escrow
10/17/16
Everything is worse now
Ain't nobody miss me
Go and call the hearse now
For the black sheep
Hit the party hard then we leaving with a nosebleed
Now I'm fucked up (fucked up)
And she's let down (let down)
It's probably best if we just give it a rest now
Back to basics
I fucking hate this
Find a way to heal
One day with some patience

Kiss my lips
And break my spine
I wish you'd just come waste my time
We'll suffer through and I'll be fine
I hate this
I hate this
I'll cut my hair
And change my name
Until we all look
Just the same
It's all my fault
I'll take the blame I hate this
I hate this (I hate this)

Just leave me to myself
I don't need nobody else
Used to ask for assistance
No one ever helped
I'm sorry 'bout the distance
And everything you felt
Why the people that I love the ones I always put through hell, yeah
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I hate the man I am, I miss the one I used to be
And now these kids treat me like a fucking VIP
I fucking hate that
Would you please let me breathe?
'Cause now my past follows everywhere I go and I can never get away cause everybody that I know says
That you're better off alone, better off dead
So I isolate at home, stuck in my head
I swear I'm never getting out of my bed
Every time I do I ruin everything that I can
I'm a fool now
I let you down
I deserve nothing but my hole in the ground so

Kiss my lips
And break my spine
I wish you'd just come waste my time
Suffer through and I'll be fine
I hate this (I hate this)
I'll cut my hair
And change my name
Until we all look
Just the same
It's all my fault
I'll take the blame
I hate this (I hate this)

I thought I was better than this
I went and fucked it up again
All the things that I once held dear are gone and it's all my fault

Kiss my lips
And break my spine
I wish you'd just come waste my time
Suffer through and I'll be fine
I hate this
You can't buy happiness with wealth
One day I'll probably kill myself
I miss you and I need help
I hate this