The Way

(Album: Infidelity In The Throne Room - 2012)

You really thought I'd make it happen
I really thought this would be different
But it isn't, and I'm guilty and it kills me

I don't know why I feel so goddamn cold
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know why I feel so damn strange
Is that okay-ay-ay-ay?
Is that the way-ay-ay-ay?

Uh, I hear them but I don't respond to indirect bullshit that requires any thought
I know the truth is in my heart and happiness can't be bought so they're wasting all their time trying to figure out the cost of it
When your story's short, but the plots are thick
You end up reading tons of books but not recalling shit
The only difference I can see between then and now is now everything is bad and that is how we got here
I love the moments right before you think you too drunk and everything is perfect but more just isn't enough
When she smiles cause she thinks you kinda cool
Right before the phone rings and everything is ruined
She looks at me and tells me that she doesn't know herself today
I say that I'll remind her if she ever does forget again
She says it's not the same and I agree, things are different like it all looks strange when you see it through a dimmer light
I guess it's true, the first cut is the deepest of them all
I can see my bones through my clothes
Uh, she'll regret it, the single shit gets played out
Drink until you're brave enough to hook up on the way out
And when she does it I'll than likely not care cause my heart was in it then but now it's not there

Now our mutual acquaintances avoid the topic
I used to have it all and then I lost it

I don't know why I feel so goddamn cold
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know why I feel so damn strange
Is that okay-ay-ay-ay-ay?
Is that the way-ay-ay-ay-ay?
I don't know why I feel so goddamn cold
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know why I feel so damn strange
Is that okay-ay-ay-ay-ay?
Is that the way-ay-ay-ay-ay?

Super wasted, super early, blonde girl with the lip ring wearing Hurley, drinking pills, got her girlfriends she rolling with
I'm rolling one, they smoking it
I mention that those trucker hats fit perfect with extensions in and you can barely notice them at all
And I am way too tired to drive or make the call, someone has to take one for the team and take a liquor run
Don't forget the red wine for fancy girls who loiter in the kitchen and the Pabst Blue Ribbon for them indie kids
The cigarettes are filling up the ashtray and the pathways are trashed with empty cans and half J's I'd probably hit
They probably think I'm having too much fun
I gave reality my number, told it "stay in touch"
I took a look at the last five missed calls, the same ones that ignore mine when I call
I wonder why the nightfall brings pain
I wonder why it still hurts the next day
I'm relying on the keen intuition and a clean criminal record to get a spot in the hills
I had enough women try to save me, nothing will but it deal, ah

Lately I been tryna block it out, I won't let myself forget how hard we tried to talk it out
Uh, some things aren't meant to be
Some things are meant to be done once

I don't know why I feel so goddamn cold
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know why I feel so damn strange
Is that okay-ay-ay-ay-ay?
Is that the way-ay-ay-ay-ay?
I don't know why I feel so goddamn cold
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know why I feel so damn strange
Is that okay-ay-ay-ay-ay?
Is that the way-ay-ay-ay-ay?

Mm, I can never run for president, no, so I run for the hills
Yeah, and the money not empty, uh, and I'm running up a bill
And I know that it is too late to say anything I meant today when tomorrow comes
Doomsday, read the note when the bottle comes, yeah, and holler back when it runs out
Uh, Imma feel it in the morning so shout out to the people who are warning me about it
I heard that life is a beach, well it sure is
And she a single mother tryna make ends meet
Ah, and her dad was a deadbeat
Ah, and she wish she never met me
Ah, it was us against the world
Now it's everyone against me

I wish I never met you, cause I just can't forget you
I can't believe I let you fall in love with me
I wish I never met you, cause I just can't forget you
I can't believe I let you fall in love with me

I don't know why I feel so goddamn cold
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know why I feel so damn strange
Is that okay-ay-ay-ay-ay?
Is that the way-ay-ay-ay-ay?
I don't know why I feel so goddamn cold
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know-oh-oh-oh-oh
I don't know why I feel so damn strange
Is that okay-ay-ay-ay-ay?
Is that the way-ay-ay-ay-ay?