Trying

(album: SUMMER03 - 2021)

Walk a long road with myself, no one by my side
Put out my hand and reach for help, but nobody saw my signs
Don't want wake up, every day I been trying
I put my face inside my hoodie sleeves to stop all my crying
And I might say that I'm okay, but hope you know that I'm lying
I might just succumb to my thoughts, I think I'm tired of trying, hm

In the spotlight and the lights, they best not dim
I done take so many L's, I think it's time for me to win
Feelings come out of my brain and start to crawl throughout my skin
Gotta wipe away my tears because they're falling off my chin, yeah
I finna never take no L's
I don't like to talk to randoms so don't hit up on my cell (Nah)
You ain't ever seen this side of me, I'm coming out my shell
If you talk to me, you better watch your tone, boy, do not yell, nah

Back to the basics, wake up and go to sleep
Don't know who's my friend, I don't know they even care for me
People always ditch me, I wonder when they're gonna leave
Hood over my head, but the wind is blowing all on me
Sticks and stones may break my bones
Don't need friends, better off alone
Leave my side, you can fuck off and go
Got some snakes in the grass, I think I need to mow

People say they ride or die but then they stab you in your back and leave
And that's why I don't trust what niggas say, no, I cannot believe
And now you know why I keep my circle small 'cause people lie to me
I finna all watch out for all my brothers, go up finally
You a bitch boy, I could give less, don't give a fuck
You was capping on the gang, so now we gotta come run up
Shots is gonna fucking shoot at you, yeah, we gon' let it bust
My bad, nigga, I'm so sorry, didn't mean to cuss, sike

Walk a long road with myself, no one by my side
Put out my hand and reach for help, but nobody saw my signs
Don't want wake up, every day I been trying
I put my face inside my hoodie sleeves to stop all my crying
And I might say that I'm okay, but hope you know that I'm lying
I might just succumb to my thoughts, I think I'm tired of trying, hm