I am a Clown

(album: Complex - 2019)

I'm always one hint of a meaningful look
From boys with one hint of reading the same books
From dressing myself in some masquerade gown
And wearing this frock in my frolicking town
That is chimera and I am a clown

If I am earnest
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown
If my tongue's in my mouth
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown

My cheeks are bright red, I am a bird
Hyenaic laughter you've probably heard
Life is a joke and I'm glad I'm around
To be in the punchline and to hear the sound
Of some people laughing, I am a clown
So why do I want those who want me to frown?

If I am earnest
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown
If my tongue's in my mouth
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown

And though I have found, I am a clown
I still put the mask on when he is around
Perhaps I am still pining after a crown...?
But it's not for me, I am a clown
Perhaps for she, graceful in bounds
Mercy on me, should you have found

If I am earnest
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown
If my tongue's in my mouth
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown

If I am earnest
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown
If my tongue's in my mouth
We're not meant to be
You should have found
I am a clown