Not The Same

(album: Survivor's Guilt - 2022)

I just wanna be left alone
There's nothing painful more than death alone
Where all my dead ones go
Like why'd y'all leave me here
I know they talking back to me but I can't seem to hear
My mentality cloudy I can't seem to clear it
Evil spirits can't avoid 'em I can't seem to shake 'em
I been through shit you couldn't stomach but won't let it break me
Gave jurisdiction hope and niggas still ain't thank me
It don't surprise me though this shit be coming with high's and lows
Got so many obituaries I can't cry no mo'
The feds stipulation stiff I can't get high no mo'
You see me staring into space I'm tryna find me soul
Tryna find myself politely I declined yo help
There's nothing you can do to bring my niggas back
And I just want my niggas back
It ain't nuffing you could do to bring my niggas back
And you can't do nutting for a gangsta you can't gimme dat

They telling me I changed
I'm knowing I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowing it's not the fame
I'm knowing it's not the money
Skeezy on my skully I ain't know nutting bout that backdoor 'til they showed me shit get ugly
They telling me I changed
I'm knowing I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowing it's not the fame
I'm knowing it's not the money
Skeezy on my skully I ain't know nutting bout that backdoor 'til they showed me shit get ugly

I use to pray I live forever shit ion care no mo'
Ayy am I weird for texting gang tho he ain't here no mo'
Mom's couldn't speak at your service 'fore she cleared her throat she broke down
They ain't know what you meant to us they know now
Throw rounds
Use to pour out liquor now we pour out pints of slimnov?
Loyalty related to betrayal that shit a thin line
Death before dishonor always been a quote I live by
His son was there to watch them niggas barbecue his ribeye
Gave my patna mama something just to get by
Even if she get high with it shit I don't blame her
The suckas catch me loafing I promise to die a gangsta
Clip hold 20 it's 19 1 in the chamber

They telling me I changed
I'm knowing it ain't the fame
Give a fuck about this money
I just wanted y'all to love me
But after all the sneaky snake shit how could you trust me
Niggas forced my hand
Shit I was forced to get him slammed

They telling me I changed
I'm knowing I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowing it's not the fame
I'm knowing it's not the money
Skeezy on my skully I ain't know nutting bout that backdoor 'til they showed me shit get ugly
They telling me I changed
I'm knowing I'm not the same
If anything it's the pain
I'm knowing it's not the fame
I'm knowing it's not the money
Skeezy on my skully I ain't know nutting bout that backdoor 'til they showed me shit get ugly