I've Been There

(album: I'm Free - 2012)

'Cause I've been there
And I know how it feels to lose your way
And lose the real you once knew existed
And I know
I know how it feels to go astray and feel the pain
You feel like something's missing

I've been there
The enemy is wearing me thin
I called your name, God
Guess you didn't hear me again
I keep praying to you
Seems like you don't want me to win
Want me to lose, 'cause
I feel like you're offering sin
To me on a silver platter
So my mind it get lost
Not just a little bit, I'm seeing all that I want
So I take it, thinking that my pain will dissolve
Back to square one, now I ain't got nothing at all
What should I do?
How should I react when
Everything I thought that wouldn't happen happened?
All my dreams out by the road where the trash is
Something's missing but I don't know how to grab it
I know that you see me, but I don't feel your presence
And something in my heart is starting to get infected
I'm starting to fall apart
Heading in a direction
Opposite of the stars
Oh yeah
And did I mention I've been there?

'Cause I've been there
And I know how it feels to lose your way
And lose the real you once knew existed
And I know
I know how it feels to go astray and feel the pain
You feel like something's missing

Satan's a liar
I hate the way he lures me in
Forget the Bible, I'd rather take a sip of this sin
And once I take a sip of it, I realize that I went
Over the edge, so I repent and then I do it again
Look at me go like the true buckram in my funeral
Black tie, black suit, now isn't it beautiful?
Uh huh
In other words, I'm tryna say that I'm dead
Don't know what's missing but I'm pulling hairs outta my head
Trying to grasp it
God what am I lackin'?
Whatever it is, I know I gotta have it
I'm falling harder than I ever imagine
I say I'm giving my best, but I know that I haven't
It's tragic
You're knocking at my door but it's locked
What's wrong with me, Doc?
I don't think this pain's gonna stop
Ain't you ever thought, Nathan, maybe it's not what's in your heart already
It's what you ain't got

'Cause I've been there
And I know how it feels to lose your way
And lose the real you once knew existed
And I know
I know how it feels to go astray and feel the pain
You feel like something's missing

Lord, forgive me
Please fill this hole in my heart
I got a life full of cracks, and I'm falling apart
Lord, forgive me
I need you to make me clean
So when they look, they see you and not just me
Lord, forgive me
Please fill this hole in my heart
I got a life full of cracks, and I'm falling apart
Lord, forgive me
I need you to make me clean
So when they look, they see you and not just me
Fill me up
I'm amped and I'm ready to go
Fill me up
I don't care if it's outta control
Fill me up
To the point that I'm so full that I'll be living and breathing to get more
Fill me up
I'm amped and I'm ready to go
Fill me up
I don't care if it's outta control
Fill me up
To the point that I'm so full that I'll be living and breathing to get more

'Cause I've been there
And I know how it feels to lose your way
And lose the real you once knew existed
And I know
I know how it feels to go astray and feel the pain
You feel like something's missing
'Cause I've been there
And I know how it feels to lose your way
And lose the real you once knew existed
And I know
I know how it feels to go astray and feel the pain
You feel like something's missing

Yeah, what I'm tryna say is:
You know, all of us been to that point where
We looking around for things in this world
Wondering what can fill that gap that's in our heart
You know what I'm sayin'?
And all I'm tryna say is:
I've been there, I know how you feel
And I also know how to feel like that, ya know
Jesus
And nothing else gon' do it for you
And that's for real