Outcast

(album: Perception - 2017)

Woke up in the cell, where am I at?
Yeah, it's cold, but I like that
What, am I trapped?
Heart's beating out of my chest
Door's locked, but the keys are in my hands
Hm, yeah, that's weird, it doesn't make sense, does it?
I make songs, I don't make friends, judge me
Might smile, but it ain't that funny
Sing along to the pain, they love it
Life's like a merry-go-round
And I'm still tryna figure it out
I like space I don't fit in the crowds
My whole life I've been airing it out
Oh, I'm getting into character now
Feels wrong, but it feels right
My feelings seal tight real nice
But I will fight anything to win
But I'm not Mike Tyson, I won't bite ya'
But I will tell you if I don't like you
I am not the norm
I got my own shoes, I ain't tryna fit in yours
I never been married, but I've felt divorced
Hi, I'm Nate, have we met before
Somebody told you I was wack? Check the source
Somebody told you I was back? Yes, of course
You got a problem with the fans? There's the door
You looking for the old me? Check the morgue, ah!
Not a fortune-teller, but I can see into the future better
Ain't no telling what'll happen when I pick up the microphone, get the fans together
Same style, but the songs are better
Been a year and a half, feels like it's gone forever
Ain't no drink in my hand, but you know the buzz is coming
Big steps in the game, yeah, the Hulk is running
My thoughts are funny, it feels like I'm on to something, yeah

I'm high off the music, my head's in the clouds
I kinda like it up here, I'm not coming down
I'd rather be alone, I am not good in crowds
Which is kinda confusing I know, been that way since a child
They laughing, they tell me I'll never get out
I'm just tryna be me, I am nobody else
I don't care what you think, I'm just being myself
So I guess for now

I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I guess I'll be the outcast

Yeah, I guess I don't fit the mold of rap
'Cause I'm respecting women
"I heard your record, I was laughin at it"
Maybe they would like me more if I got a little graphic with it
Nah, I don't wanna blend in with you little rapping idiots, I'd rather be the outcast
I ain't never putting out trash
I take a hundred and staple it right to my tongue
I always put the money where my mouth's at, ah!
Feels good to be here now
I'm a weird person with a weird crowd
What, you don't like that?
That's cool, that's great, that's fine, okay, you can leave now
Got a weird smile, but I like it though
I paint it on me and I'm walking to the microphone
And put the caution tape around me like I did in Intro I, yeah!
Yeah, they got me reminiscing now!
You done know I'm 'bout to go mad
Never wanted something so bad
Goosebumps through the whole track
Ain't no way I'm gonna hold back
Got me thinking that I'm cooking in a meth lab
I don't blow it up in front of my own eyes
You look a little lost, you ain't get that?
Coming from a town where nobody is a rapper
Guess I never get the memo, must've missed that
Wow!
Here I go in my feelings again, I can feel it again
So I lay in my bed, in my cell with the pen
And I dwell on my sins, I keep wondering when
Time to open the doors, they don't know who I am
But I pick up the keys and I put on my Timbs
And I stare at the locks and the tat on my skin
And I think to myself, "I don't wanna fit in"

I'm high off the music, my head's in the clouds
I kinda like it up here, I'm not coming down
I'd rather be alone, I am not good in crowds
Which is kinda confusing, I know, been that way since a child
They laughing, they tell me I'll never get out
I'm just tryna be me, I am nobody else
I don't care what you think, I'm just being myself
So I guess for now

Yeah, I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I guess I'll be the outcast

Yeah, tryna focus
Take a knife to my head then I cut it open
Take my brain, put it on the floor tryna figure out my motives
Y'all thought I was an issue when the door was locked
Nah, you should see me when the door opens
Every night I can hear voices
Put a camera in my face, might turn Joker like I'm Mike Posner
Always been a little complex
Difficult to process
Some of y'all wanna sit around and try to pick apart my bars
Here's some lines you could dissect:
If I'ma die, I'ma die giving everything that I have
Take a deep breath, I don't need y'all's respect
I'm a reject kid at recess playing games with his make-believe friends
Yeah, I don't ever take a night off
Lights off in the room and I write songs
I might fall into my thoughts once in a while when the mic's off
You ain't ever seen no drive like mine, better hop outta my car
I'm about to unlock my doors
You ain't got a seat belt on, better find one
Getting sick of people telling me to smile more
T.S. was a chapter I'll never forget, it was therapy for me
But it's time to turn the page now
Hey, shut up! I'm tryna tell 'em my story!
I'm sorry, I wasn't yelling at y'all, I was talking to the voices
I rip out the drums of the industry's ears for trying to ignore me and playing while singing this chorus

I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I guess I'll be the outcast

I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I'll just be the outcast
I guess I'll be the outcast