Oceans & Engines

(album: Nicole - 2022)

Saturday sunset
We're lying on my bed with five hours to go
Fingers entwined and so were our minds
Crying, I don't want you to go
You wiped away tears
But not fears under the still and clear indigo
You said "Baby, don't cry, we'll be fine"
"You're the one thing I swear I can't outgrow"
My mother said the younger me was a pretending prodigy
Well, nothing then much has changed
'Cause while you're wolfing down liquor
My soul, it gets sicker
But I'm sticking to the screenplay
Gotta say I'm okay
But answer this, babe

How is it now that somehow you're a stranger?
You were mine just yesterday
I prayed the block in my airway dissipates
And instead deters your airplane's way
But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Something beautiful died
Too soon

But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
Someday I'll be fine
But just not tonight (Oh)

Plunging into all kinds of diversions
Like blush wine and sonorous soirées
But even with gin and surging adrenaline
I see you're all that can intoxicate

Oceans and engines
You're skilled at infringing on great love affairs
'Cause now my heart's home
All I've known is long gone and ten thousand miles away
And I'm not okay

But I'm letting go
I'm giving up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you that's why I wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
But just not

Tonight was the first time I stared into seas of beguiling sepia two years ago
And the first time I learned real world superpowers lived in three words they revitalize my fraying bones(Hm)
Now what do you do when your pillar crumbled down
You've lost all solid ground
Both dreams and demons drowned
And this void's all you've found
And doubts light it aglow
I have so many questions
But I'm pouring them into the ocean
And I'm starting up my engine

And I'm letting go
I'm giving up your ghost
It's come to a close
I marked the end with this last song I wrote
I'm letting go
This is the last falsetto I'll ever sing to you
My great lost love