ruiner

(album: ruiner - 2018)

It's the young Edgar Allen spitting live from the basement
Do it for the love give a fuck about the payment
If I'm being honest I don't know what I'm chasing
Need a space to place my thoughts and the songs the location
I'm fucking sick of writing all these sad songs
But I'm just being real, it's how I feel word is bond
I just wanna let you know you not alone
And that I know what's it like when you never leave your home

When you can't get out of bed you can't even check your phone
Can't even lift your head like your bones are made of stone
When everyone you know is asking why you feeling low
But you can't tell 'em why cause you don't even know
I got radio execs trying to say what's best
I got pressure coming down got me overly stressed
I got suicidal thoughts floating through my head
I got people from the past probably hoping I'm dead

Oh no
What's your mama gonna say
When I tell her that I broke your heart
It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
Oh no
Now you crying on the bathroom floor
And I guess it's the end
Well I lost my mind then I lost my best friend

Damn

So what if I did and what if I didn't
I just wish I wasn't stuck between decisions
I just wish I didn't feel like somethings missing
I just need to get outside this mental prison
3 AM and I'm stuck in a rut
Seems like every time I leave I end up thinking of us
I keep fucking with your head like a lobotomy
I lost it all and you'll always be a part of me

And can you feel the pain when you wake up?
Late again and it's dark out
I don't even know where it came from
Can't escape, got me feeling down
I remember days in the hometown
Things change when you come around
Now they just memories now
Keep feeling up then I feel down

Oh no
What's your mama gonna say
When I tell her that I broke your heart
It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
Oh no
Now you crying on the bathroom floor
And I guess it's the end
Well I lost my mind then I lost my best friend

Well I lost my mind then I lost my best friend
Well I lost my mind then I lost my best friend