The Light

(album: Scared Of Heights - 2021)

You found me on the edge, don't be surprised when I look off
Usually, I can fight, some nights it's easier to walk away
From all the feelings and the constant running thoughts
I say that I'm okay, but you know honestly I'm not today
I thought I could be impossible and smile from the gut
Instead I'm wondering why I got up
I hide from the sun and lie to the ones I love, but
My life is what dreams are made of
I promised myself I'd stop writing about my sadness
So I stopped making music and waited there in the blackness
Like I'm sad, no, I'd be really bad and in reflection
You have to let it go to know you love it without question
I didn't write a verse for a year 'cause every bar was more tears
And it was hard to hear me arguing with scars I can't heal
You know I wanted that deal, I wanted the fame
We all had the glasses full of poison champagne

You left me in the gutter
Thrown me to the wolves
You thought that I would suffer
Then left me through the cold, cold
Cold, cold night sky's dark, I
Fight my monsters
I got stronger
Then I shone, shone, shone the light

I did a thousand sessions, tryna reach perfection
Handed my fucking heart, and then it came back with corrections
They wanted a pop star, well I wrote to fight depression
Told me they believed in me, but I had my objections
My manager stopped calling, and he broke my fucking heart
'Cause he liked the life I'm building, couldn't watch it fall apart
I got a tattoo on my neck, he told me: "Try to look alive"
I'm searching cyanide, tryna die while I fucking lie
People dropping like flies and spreading garbage and lies
A more courageous person would've probably died
And they're still talking shit, man, just get on with your lives
Feels like a damn fucking time, but yeah, I gotta remind
Now I'm on sold out tours, crying between cities
There's a lotta time to think between Cali and New Port Richey
And every label called me, but I never called 'em back
Was imagining the hell is when there's snakes in the grass

You left me in the gutter
Thrown me to the wolves
You thought that I would suffer
Then left me through the cold, cold
Cold, cold night sky's dark, I
Fight my monsters
I got stronger
Then I shone, shone, shone the...

You left me in the gutter
Thrown me to the wolves
You thought that I would suffer
Then left me through the cold, cold
Cold, cold night sky's dark, I
Fight my monsters
I got stronger
Then I shone, shone, shone the light

You left me in the...
You left me in the...
Thrown me to the wolves
You thought that I would suffer
You left me in the...