Wishing Well

If I could take a picture of my brain
Ashes in a field, and my mansion burnt to frames
Locked inside the basement is the people that I blame
For the pain, and a field of smoking embers in the rain

Smoke settled and now all I smell is sulfur
Making offerings to circling vultures
Killing all the parts of me that learned to dream in color
Because keeping them alive would mean they'd always have to suffer

Then I blinked and got lost in the instance
I got so far and all it cost me was distance
Fire in the air, I made ash from my kingdom
And fell flat on my back from flipping off the system

It's not right that when I jumped I did not take flight
And now the voices in my head keep saying they got it right
Now I'm terrified of heights, and I'm blind to all the lights
Tying shit around my neck tryna put stars into my nights

Don't come wishing at my well
Saying that you miss me and you hope I find myself
You and your well wishes
See you in hell bitches
Keep your two pennies up in that jar that's on your shelf
Y'all don't know me no more

There's a couple people that I wanna see
But I'm trying not to get in trouble with my feet
Walk a string of bad decisions, She been known to go repeat
With a head full of issues she tell everyone I meet

I used to have compassion for her. Think that they were asking for her
Didn't understand why they would break her when they can't restore her
Then there's blood on the floor I see black
This wouldn't have fucking happened if I didn't find your knife in my back

Don't you ever think you fueled my fire, or left me inspired
Like hitting rock bottom was just what I required
How when the perfect all faded and I was left on the wire
Bet you expected me to up and retire

You fuckin flake. How am I'm doing fucking great
I just feel a crushing pain with every breath I fucking take, take, take
But as I bring my mansion to the ground
Brick by brick I build a castle in the clouds

Don't come wishing at my well
Saying that you miss me and you hope I find myself
You and your well wishes
See you in hell bitches
Keep your two pennies up in that jar that's on your shelf
Y'all don't know me no more