From The Bottom Of My Black Heart

(album: Struggle - 2016)

Where do I begin?
I have a side of me that's darker than you can imagine
I never thought I could feel this way
You were the one I thought I'd never betray
The distance is growing
I hope you know you're only lying to yourself
The resistance you've been showing
I hope you know you're only lying, lying
I am filled with hate
Deep down, and now it's awake
Don't dream of me
I'll be the one to bring you to your knees

But you wouldn't feel the same
If I told you everything
How the puppets dance without their strings
I liked you better as the voice in your head
And if love is pain
Then all this hate is novocaine
And I don't want to feel anything
I liked you better as the ghost in your head

I'm sorry I'm not good enough
Taking advantage of
I'm fed up
Step back
I'm above you now
All of the broken vows that every time you bow down
I'm sorry I'm not good enough
Taking advantage of
I'm fed up
Sometimes I remember why I am the way I am
It's people like you that show me that love is a sham
I'm not your safe haven
It's your world that's about to cave in

I hope you know you're only lying to yourself
I hope you know you're only lying, lying
I hope you know you're only lying to yourself
You're only lying, lying
I hope you know you're only lying to yourself
I hope you know you're only lying to yourself

But you wouldn't feel the same
If I told you everything
How the puppets dance without their strings
I liked you better as the voice in your head
And if love is pain
Then all this hate is Novocaine
And I don't want to feel anything
I liked you better as the ghost in your head

So if you wanted a monster
Then have I got a treat for you
You've been telling me I'm evil
And I'm beginning to believe it's true
I've kept him a secret
I've kept him chained up in the dark
But now he's going to
Destroy you

And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
I mean it
I mean it
I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it
And I mean it

From the bottom of my black heart
I will destroy you
I will destroy you
I promise you
From the bottom of my black heart
I will destroy you
I will destroy you
I promise you
From the bottom of my black heart